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thursday 13.12.2007
going to labuan
yeah yeah, today finally can go labuan lor, i dreamt to go for a long long time dy lor, last time cant join pang n siao fung, then finally today can go b4 foo back sdk work, yeah yeah...super dupper happy~~


wednesday 12.12.2007
going for interview
today is my big day, im having my teacher interview at rumah persekutuan, jabatan pelajaran negeri Sabah...nervous? act not reli lor, i oso dunno why i reli not so nervous as i think i will, macam biasa saja...even jet oso wanna worry for me, ahahaha...i so dam ding tim, make me so ng hou yi shi oh, hehe..then have a breakfast with jet nearby her house then send me to sembulan to have my interview...
reached ter, i met few coursemates ter, then Yuk Yung told me, d office ppl din know tat ter will be an interview for d day, WAT? dunno? means no interview? start worry a bit, then a 'handsome' officer ter tell us to sign for attendance, ok la, means they know ter will be an interview later la, so make me fong sam a bit lor, then oao have to wait ter for quite a while then only they asked us to go in n wait in d meeting room...waited for almost 1.5 hour, then only we saw 1 out of d 2 panel reached meeting room...a woman, with an outstanding charisma n professinal, make me quite yan siong her, but from her outlook, sure she will bomb us a lot when she interview us...ahhaha...be ready to die...then i reli die a lot when i went in for interview...
ok, talk bout my interview..there r 2 panels ter, i only remember d lady's name, miss marie...she asked bout pedagogy at 1st, then i managed to answer all her Qs, then she ask bout the minister's name, wah..kena sudah, coz i reli dunno who is d KPM deputy's name, then she gave me 2 min to go out n ask who so ever n then gave her d answer later, so scary oh, then i fast fast go out n ask lo, luckily the malay girl know then help me once dy..then after tat, asked bout PIPP oso..list d 6 teras, ok no problem, i memorize dy, but..then she asked tat how d government do to closer d gap between normal n handicap students...opss...i only know d surface facts...when wanna go into it, i reli dunno la, then bluff ter, said watever i can but she keep on shoot me so much..die hard lor...hehehe...so sad after it, msg kian then he said something not nice oso, make me more sad n had a little quarrel with him...sien sai, keep on quarrel with him lately..then after d test...end of everything, dy 2pm, felt so hungry then asked jet send me to eat McD...ahhaha, long time no eat dy, miss miss so much...din got for shopping coz both of jus dy so tire, then back home n sleep a while...
nit time, went to have dinner with loong n siew tien, long long time no meet loong dy, still d same, still bully me, ahahaha....then went to have coffee bean oso..then back home, ready to go Labuan d next day...yeah yeah...

tuesday 11.12.2007
going to kk tonite
Today, is d day of our in charge back from holi at Indonesia. but once she back, i dy wan her to approve my 3 days leave start tml, ahahaha...sui yan oh hoh, but wat to do? i dy very good wait her back only take leave not straight on leave on today la...
nite time, my flight at 9.10pm, but mum early early dy wan me go airport, scare d plane will fly early, but i not reli so scare oso, ahhaha...sure d flight will wait for me one, once i haven check in, they cant just leave like tat geh, rite?
reached kk on time then met jet n siew tien at airport, i will stay at her house during my trip in kk, sure she won reject me n welcome me so much la, since im here i can accom her ma, then she no need so boring at home, c, MY function very geng woh, can make ppl less boring one ma, wahahaha...reach kk dy feel very tire, coz after a whole day working plus rush here n ter eh, then thou loong ask to out yamcha, i say no oso, plus i need to prepare for d interview next day oso ma, coz i reli din prepare anything yet lo, thou got study a bit, but oso not enuf lo i think, coz sure d interviewer will ask a lot bout edu things, n i not reli know much, wahahahah..even d minister of edu i oso forgot his name dy, wahahahah...last time i still remember geh now dy forget lo...ini apa orang kan? my boss's name oso can forget one....so when reached jet's house, revise a bit on PIPP n d minister name then oso learn how to sing d lagu guru too...hahahahaa...who knows will kena ask to sing ter later? ahahhaa...then kian n i had a little fight too...so sien, i so in need of him but he still wanna quarrel with me...sien sai...then i don choi him n sleep dy..let him worry himself ter, wahahahah...d evil MY here...

no fuel

haha, my saga no fuel dy lo, act i saw d board showing fuel warning for 2 days dy, but i still don wan to go n refill...coz i so stingy dy ma, wanna go refill woh, sure need $$$ woh, hahahaa, sure ng seh dak la, coz later i need to pay around rm300 for d air ticket, then go labuan eh, eat eh, shopping eh..i think this KK trip sure will finish my whole month's salary lor, then for d rest of 20 days, i can eat air only lo, hahah, can keep fit then, ok la, nvm la..heheh~~
noon time, after fong gong, i went to have lunch with Yee Shee at san mei ter, dat day i drink vincent's pepper soup was so nice oh, so today i order d pepper soup too..then chat a lot with shee, all about our work stuff...her company reli so nice oh compare to mine..hai, no tat kind of luck then sure cant get that kind of good job lo..but nvm, after interview n if nothing special happen, i will have my posting very soon, then eat government's rice, hahah..sure best lo~~

interview letter

this morning, i left my IC for my dad try to take d letter for me, since i don wan to take 1 hour leave, so i jus left d IC for him, plus i wrote a letter too, kononnya give kuasa to my dad to take d letter for me, but at last, d ppl in post office asked nothing at all, jus took my IC n wrote down my IC number n tats it, my dad help me to take d letter dy. then at 9pm, i called back home, then mum told me, my interview will be on 12.12.07, at KK. so, start tat moment, my brain is so stress, coz i need to plan when should i take leave, where should i stay in kk, wat reason i have to give to apply for leave, which airplane i should take n who can help me when im in KK...my brain turn n turn n turn, wish can come out a good plan...but..not reli lor, coz i cant make up my mind at all. talked to ah foo n jet in msn, foo ask me to go Labuan oso, make me 'heart big heart small' wan to go oso..but i reli cant apply so many leave la, deduct a lot oh...next month no money to use la, coz i plane to go KK during new year oso ma..so reli hard to make up my mind yet...then...i start feel stress to survive in d office, start feel tat, wat ever v do, no matter it is right o wrong, ppl sure will gossip behind u, ppl will cucuk from behind, reli so scaring n unsecure..my mood wasnt good today, i din talk much n smile much, miss lok feel tat im so strange, she quite caring to me, ask me a lot, whether im not feeling well o got problem, however, i din reli tell her what is bothering in my mind, jus tell her tat im alright, thou reli seems so not right la...but im sure tml i will be MY again, coz i so optimistic ma, thou when problems come, i will feel down, but im sure d next day, im okay already, coz i im 'big prawn head' ma, so easy can forget thing geh, ehehe, i feel happy i have this bad habit oso, coz i reli no need to always keep those unhappy memories in my small brain, if not sure will feel so stress oh, rite?
when i am so down, i think of him at the very 1st moment, then sms him n tell him that i feel so unhappy, but, i reli dunno is my wrong o its fate, everytime i m so down so unhappy so stress so need him can accom me a bit, he is sure very bz n no time can talk much with me one..reli feel so 'dap' one, n this make me feel more down n unhappy, when he finally can share some time to call me, i feel d timing past dy..thou he wanna do something to make me happier, but it seems he has failed to do so, coz i reli cant make myself happier dy after such a while...do u understand how i feel? is it so confuse? sorry, i oso not sure what im talking now, jus feel wanna to write down my feeling at this moment!
then, i make up my mind dy, i wanna go KK on 11.12.07, night flight, then take leave on 12, 13 n 14, i want to go Labuan!! i want to go Labuan while ah foo is still ter to take me around, i wanna meet him, i long time no c my 'qing fu' dy lo, hehehe, thou not long ago he jus back sdk to attend his fren's wedding, hahaa...but reli miss d time when we all spent time together, sit down at PUB, drink juice n talked nonsense for d whole night, frens, do u all miss tat moment? hope we can meet up again soon, miss u all~~

a boring day

today, very boring..din reli have much to do at office today, so jus oways open this file, tat file, pretending im so busy doing things, ahahah, act no need pretend oso can la, coz my big big boss not around, d cctv ter oso useless la, but anyhow, sure still need to pretend some la, who knows ter is someone wanna cucuk me from behind? so since i din have much to do, i start to play game with few of my cute cute colleagues..play reversi..ahhaa, finally i win today lor, i beat tracy finally, yest lose to her..hahaha...play quite a few times with them, then suddenly feel so unsecure, like there is someone watching me from behind..giving a sharp starring...then..i told them tat v better don play lo, coz scare v will receive a warning letter, coz play game in d office, then so f*ck lor...hahaa...
today, sing yee sms me n told me tat got frens received letter to go for interview on 12 dec n ask whether i got it o not..sure i haven, but i suddenly got a feel, i not sure is instinct o wat, i call back home n ask dad to go open d mail box n check whether there is any letter for me. then at around 4pm, dad called me, n yes, he got a registered letter for me, n it required me to go take it myself..my fren told me tat d leter should be a registered letter, so i quite sure this is d letter to ask me go for interview, i so nervous oh, plus excited too, coz finally i got news from d government lor, then my teacher life is no far away dy..hehehe...but another Q come, d interview, if with no mistake, will be held on 12.12.07, is Tuesday..n it is a working day, n it is next week...i only have 5 more days to prepare for d interview n i have done nothing at all for all this while thou Jet dy gave me d books for a long long time dy..i did read it for once, n thats all...aiks, i dy forget all those principles n wat sekolah bestari n bla bla bla la..a big headache is coming oso la..so god, please help me...

KWSP

today after lunch, back office to continue my boring office hour life as usual...then i saw Syah wanna go out with uncle Liao, then dunno why suddenly i will ask uncle tat where are they wanting to gom then he told me tat they are going to KWSP to do something..oh yes, go to KWSP ah, then i asked him whether i can follow him to go o not coz i haven open account for my KWSP yet, then he said: sure can la, why not..u doing this as part of office thing too ma...ahha, then, i went out to do my KWSP, n for 1 1/2 hour, i can curi tulang secara terang2nya...coz no ppl can say me curi tulang..coz i reli doing d serious thing oso ma, hahaha...feel so syok, no need to waste my lunch hour n go do this kind of thing..hehee...untungnya~~
then went back to office...drink QQ ice lagi...as for me this food poisoning ppl, i still not scare to die one, drink this cold n maybe willl make me stomachache thing wah..u say me reli so 'jin' rite? if i cant recover in this 3 days, can say 'dai sei' too...hahaa...y i curse myself like this ah? sure i can recover 1 ma...thou i forgot to take my medicine on time...my bro la..he took my phone this noon, i dy set alarm to remind myself to take medicine ma, i know i sure will forget one, but then he came fine me this noon n take my phone dy coz he send his new hp to wrap ma..then i forget to eat la...untuil fong gong time, then only i remember n then only i take d medi lor..hai...don angry me la..i oso don wish this to happen ma..i won repeat again lor..hahaha~~

minor food poisoning

tis noon, during my lunch hour, kian urged me to go c doctor, act i reli din wan to go, coz this morning my stomach din pain ma, so i think it is better dy, but, kian's face was so black at tat time, till i reli not dare to say no, so i follow him to d nearest clinic, Clinic Dr. Raja, read d name oso know it is a indian doctor la rite? so when i went in, i registered myself then waiting for my turn to c this handsome doctor..hehe..kian's face was so black coz he faced so much problems in his working this morning, so his mood was not so good..d moral of d lesson: don ever say NO to him whenever he is not in d good mood, or, u will die!!
its my turn to c d doctor, n...according to him, according to his profesional, according to his specialization..im food poisoning...tats y i have this continuos stomachache for a da*n whole week dy. Gosh...food poisoning? wat did i eat? n this is not d 1st time i got food poisoning man, d second time dy lo! my cheong wai reli tat worst oh...n i wondering wat did i eat last week, nothing special ah, n i conclude myself tat...coz i continuosly eat outside for lunch for whole month dy, since my cheong wai dy not good, sure all those dirty dirty things accumulate inside my stomach, then at last..food poisoning! haha, am i rite? i wonder... d consultancy fee took me RM 30 for 3 kinds of medicine..so d*mn expensive...but wat to do, food poisoning woh, now is only minor, if don go doc now, later got severe dy...gosh...i cant imagine tat~~ doc asked me not to eat solid food n don drink milk...but after c doc, i went to take my lunch, thou is vege rice, but it still solid food ma, rite? nvm la, if don eat, then eat wat woh...eat air meh...
today, inside my office, d 'hei fan' wasnt so right..nearly there was a great quarrel happened, n im so lucky that it didnt happen. why would it be like this? i know..but i don wan to tell ah..hahaa...kidding la..act its hard for me to explain oso...but my fren told me about office politics, n how will it hurt u quitely, n hey fren, it is so right oh! i reli hope i will never get into any of them~~blesses on me~~

continuous stomachache

i dunno wat happen to me, i have this weird 'diesease' for a continuos week dy lor, not those kind of stomachache that need to go toilet n 'bomb' the tokyo, hehe, but jus little pain now, then better, then come back, then get better...go to toilet tot wanna do big stuff...but none one..i reli dunno wat happen...last nite reli feel so unwell, not only stomachache, plus headache tim...feel so down, kian wasnt by my side at 1st, we were sms-ing at d nite, then suddenly i din get any reply from him when i told him dat i feeling now well, feel so sad, then i went in my room, off my light, n ready to sleep. then kian sms me, asked me to wait him..oh, he was so sweet...he drove from his house n buy food for me n bring me medi for stomachache too..so touch oh..feel wanna cry when i knew he was on d way come to find me...sure i din cry la..i strong ma, ehehe...then he came to my house n stay for jus 15 min i think then he left.he watched me take d medi then left..coz he was so sleepy n tire after 2 hours plus play basketball, n i was so tire n sleepy too coz i took a panadol too..so any1 can tell me why i will feel stomachache for so long? coz i eat something wrong? o my 'cheong wai' reli tat not good? coz i eat outside for a month dy during lunch? i have no idea..

1st salary~~

today, is d 1st time i got my salary lor, wahahhaa...yeh yeh yeh, but, not so much la, but still can survive la! but today so sucks la, at around 11am, HR ter send a list to us, n ask us to complete d chart by writing all our camp's workers commence date...wah sai, i have 293 ppl working in my camp n u expect us to complete it in 1 hour only? thou v have high working ability, but, hey, v are not superwomen oh~~so all of us sit so quitely in d office, highly concentrate on our computer n our list, hoping tat v can complete it soon. i feel reli so stress by tat time, plus stomach keep on telling me: madam, its time to lunch lor..feel so so so hungry oh, luckily got chocolate in my drawer then i take out 2, 1 for miss Lok n 1 sure for myself, then temporary feel better..around 2, then only i finish my work, so sucks...suppose fin working at 12.30pm..but now so late only can go..suckss....

<<蒲公英的约定>>

你有观看了周杰伦的电影<<不能说的秘密>>吗？
你还记得那部戏里面那感人的乐曲吗？
如果你有注意到的话，那么相信你对这首歌是很熟悉的！！

<<蒲公英的约定>>
作词：方文山　作曲：周杰伦
小学篱芭旁的蒲公英　
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音　
多少年后也还是很好听
将愿望折纸飞机寄成信　
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币　
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定　
那样清晰　打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行　
是你如今　唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心　
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧　
很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定　
那样真心　
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　
你是友情还是错过的爱情

my JAY~~

my dear Jay Chou Jie Lun has released his brand new album recently, this time i admit im not his loyal fans, coz when he released his new album, i din know at all, hehee, wat so call fans wah..but don scold me ma, i was so bz with work things recently ma, hehe, wat a lame excuse. ok la, so now im listening to my beloved Jay now lor, his all 10 songs, again, i love them so much, jus like his previos album, all his songs are so nice n best!! of course la, my Jay woh, who u think he is? he is a genius in music arena, we cant deny it at all, dont u angree with me? as a fren of mine, u won say u don angry geh, rite? coz u all know i will go crazy if u criticize my dear Jay oh~~ act all his songs also given by Kian, hehe, he sure knew tat i love Jay so much oh~~ n his MV<<牛仔很忙>> is so cute oh, Jay become so cute oh~~ this is d song i love so much in his new album, if u all have a time, reli don be so stingy oh, share some time n listen to his new songs, esp this one~~

周杰伦 - 彩虹
作曲:周杰伦 作词:周杰伦
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑 要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开 我知道很简单你说依赖
是我们的阻碍就算放开
但能不能别没收我的爱当作我最后才明白

all about me~~

個性

你是個重視美和氣氛的浪漫主義者。你沒有很強的物慾，所以，也不會特意去營造財產。你認為不必買房子，只要有住的地方即可，比起買個房子但必需遠距離通勤，你寧願在都市附近租間公寓住。你是一個在心智上完全臻於成熟的人。每天精神奕奕、充滿自信，同時又很受到朋 友們的信賴。但是相對地，你對日常生活乃至人生的態度稍嫌嚴肅了一點。或許是因為 你給別人的印象就是如此，而你也刻意地去表現出這一面。不過，如果你能更加任性點 ，偶而輕鬆一下，不要固執地想要一直去扮演完人的角色。說不定反而能提高你的聲望也說不定。 你是那種吵架吵完就忘的類型。無論吵得再凶，對方說得多難聽 ，睡了一覺之後，你都好像沒發生過一樣地能和對方繼續相處。這樣的態度，反倒是讓對方自己覺得慚愧，而能順利地言歸於好。你是個很浪漫的人，生活態度也像夢般的虛幻。對錢很不在意，只有在感覺錢是很重要的時候，才會加以儲蓄。麊鷟犒B用漫不經心，常會丟掉錢包，借給別人的錢也常常會忘記。由於你浪漫的個性，所以不要等到要救急時才存錢，更要有計畫的管理錢財，這樣對你才會有幫助。你是一個有自信的人，雖然你不是做到態度上的咄咄逼人，可是只要你堅持一個想法，無論別人如何去唆使、蠱惑你，你都不為所動，不過這不代表你是剛愎自用的，相反的，你很喜歡聽到別人對你的建言，是一個很不錯的人喲！你喜歡正大光明與人迎面鬥上，因為你認為自己好像是舞臺上的主角，一定要有出色的表現。所以一開始可能只是一個小爭端，但你會戲劇性誇大其嚴重性，將現場緊繃的張力延伸至最大，你不過是想爭取群眾的注意罷了。只要給你面子，讓你得到一些掌聲，事情就可以馬上落幕。 你是心地非常善良的人，但與人相處時為了不想暴露自己的缺點而設了一道防線，所以有時會被人誤會為不容易親近之人，雖然朋友不多，但能擁有深厚友誼。再者有優秀的數字能力，能在理工上一展長才。你的個性保守,相當重視道德.因此這種類型的人很重視自己的想法,不勉強自己與他人交往,有頑固的一面.你能擁有一份可以發揮自己專長的工作,逐步完成自己的夢想。還有，你脾氣變化無常，有興趣時，能認真踏實做下去，一旦失去興趣，就會對所做的事感到莫明其妙，予以放棄。

愛情

你的感情表現常常是勇敢、開明、自由的，因為你非常的坦然，因此從來不喜歡猜忌或懷疑別人對你的態度和心意。你對人有很好的包容力，如果遇到實在不喜歡的人，採取態度是迴避，不會直接衝突。暗戀是你最拿手的戀愛方式!永遠只在遠遠的地方看著心儀的人,幻想著有一天他會主動來約你.愛他就要勇敢說出來!加油唷。你一但真的愛上對方就會變的有點痴呆，可以說是對戀愛的掌控度非常不拿手，雖然你平常能夠很厲害的抓住異性的心，可是，一但在心儀的對象面前，就會變的有點笨手笨腳；而且會因為太緊張，而無法表達自己，不過這也許就是你可愛的地方也說不一定。在一旁等到沒人時才上前去欣賞那幅畫，正是屬於等候型的人。這種人只會傻傻的等待机會上門，不會自己去尋找，因此常有眼睜睜看著心上人被人搶走的經驗，真可憐！有智慧、沉靜、三思後行，尊重人，有修養的個性，是你之所以喜歡他的原因。一旦與他認識，你會希望與他共處一生。你對於戀情抱著浪漫、綺麗的夢想，對於喜歡的對象，你是不是在單戀人家呢？對你而言，得到他的愛情，就算沒有了全世界，你也會覺得沒什麼了！你外表看起來像是溫馴的小綿羊，不會做出傷人的事，但相處一久，就可以發現，在你純潔的羊皮之下，是一顆熾熱的心。因為你這樣愛到深處無怨尤的性格，才會那麼在乎對方，時刻都想黏在一起，是屬於隱性透明的強力膠。你會因愛人的言行舉止，而產生許多迷惑，你不能肯定他是否真心愛你，也不知道愛情會延續多久，所以你時常為了這個問題而煩惱不安，其實你不必這麼懷疑對方，應該以信心和誠意來對待他，才能共創永恆的愛情。基本上你算是很專情的，只是你好像不太願意去承認這些事，只把這種愛慕放在心裡，面對性時，你只是像個孩子一樣，雖然笨拙，但也純真得可愛！你給異性的感覺是個喜歡交朋友的人，所以跟你較相近的對象也應該是個悠然自得、懂得享受愛情的人。你們兩人很可能成為令人近羨的鴛鴦夫妻。這種注意格調的人，多半都是注意外表的人。你是否會認為沒戀人是件很沒面子的事呢??而當你到他家作客時，由你所在意的事情便可以看出你是否真的喜歡他。你的醋勁不算太大，但是偶爾會疾火中燒，不過不是很強烈，不過忍耐太久 就會有爆發的可能。


事業
你的心智成熟度嚴格上來說還沒有真的成熟，ＥＱ比較差，常常陰晴不定的表情就會掛在臉上，做事好像也是「隨性而為」，老大不高興就擺張「憂鬱」的臉呆在那，如果有人在這時請他做事，就好像是你的不對一樣。你有點太高估自我能力，認為自己才能足以領導大家，很嚮往得到有權有名的滋味，也花上許多時間去爭取，得到後姿態擺得也粉高，卻不知自我才能其實平平，根本無法服眾，這點需要注意。


人際關係

你會是個擁有豐富專業知識的人才，而且年紀輕輕便能把自己的性格、專長、興趣逐一展現出來。事業是你一生中最重要的東西，無論從 政、營商或者其你行業，都可輕易掌握，能開創一條光明大道。可是，正因過分自信，不願聽取別人意見及忠告，加上不愛受束縛，常令人感覺你狂妄自大。你狂狷的性格總為自己帶來一點麻煩，惹得別人對你的死硬脾氣有點感冒。人家覺得不是很重要的小節，在你眼中，可是了不得的大事，要是觸犯了你的禁忌，十年不相往來是很有可能發生的事。雖說如此，你對於合得來的知交，卻是好得不得了，願意以寶劍相贈知己，出手闊綽，令人咋舌。你對於朋友的懷舊度似乎不高，有時候你應該好好珍惜和朋友的友誼。

懒惰的敏仪

懒惰的敏仪又回来了！这几天做工的时候终是懒懒的，没什么去做东西，加上并没有睡好，所以终是希望能够快快到了5点，那么就能回家了。不用工作的日子真是好，还真的有点后悔这么早就开始做工了。但想想，没有做工日子也很难过的，每天就像无业游民，一点贡献都没有，就好一条寄生虫一样，过久了这种生活还真的对自己会失去信心了，还是出去多认识一些人差比较好罢，朋友们，对吗？虽然工作还有点简单，但其实还真的学到了不少的东西，学会了如何观颜察色，哈哈，社会大学还这不容易读的噢！

a not bad website~~

http://www.whobirdyou.com/whobirdyou/personality_tests.asp

piggy him

tat piggy kian promise me will come n look for me tonite, but, jus forget it la, till now i din get any call or sms from him, so, sure he still in his sweet dream meeting 'zhao gung' n playing chess with him la, so sure 冻过水la, better stay at home n blogging la, haha!
today meeting with big boss, reli so scary man, this is d 3rd time i went for meeting but it was d 1st time i finally know how this big boss scold ppl lor, walau eh, reli 名不虚传oh, jus a tiny little mistake he oso can scold ppl till 狗血淋头. reli 佩服 him so much. but as ppl say, 受人钱财替人受罪，为了两餐是这样的啦。进入第三个星期在这里工作，开始忙起来了，尤其是今天，用了一个早上来update minits, 因为害怕开时会被骂，还好没有，不然真的是倒霉了。
放工时，我去了Hotel Tyng Garden...yo yo yo, 去干什么？嘿嘿，去interview啦，别想歪了。是之前申请到的，但我想我不会转工啦，才一个月不到就转工，开玩笑嘛！还是乖乖在这里挨吧！~~

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？是的..

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。.也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。.不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。.他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。 你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？
很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。
因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .

porridge steamboat

for 2 saturday straight, i went for d porridge steamboat with kian n his frens, yo, man, it is so nice la, d porridge steamboat reli so damn nice, hahaha, thou d food not much but once eat those porridge, dy feel so full, esp v added in d egg into d porridge, wow, it is so nice n tasty, reali cant resist it, hahaha..so must give urself a try if u r in sdk oh, but i think everywer oso got la, esp kl, my 1st time porridge steamboat was in kl, sungai wang ter, with my ex roommate, Tze Kie, she is doing her KPLI now...yest after d steamboat, went to play ps2 with hong hong, hahaaa, 1st time playing d game killing ppl one, hahaa, sure i dunno how to play, 2players ma, so hong responsible to kill d king, then im d one jus kill anyone come to attack me, not bad ma, can 'fat sit' once if v are not in d mood, then i sure got scream here n ter when i was attacked by those bad ppl, kian said he can hear my voice from upstairs, hahaaha, so paiseh la...

~Angels Brought Me Here~

today is friday, 4.30pm can back from office lor, but today went home a bit late, kononnya need to pretend hardworking a bit ma, if not later boss saw me from cctv ter tat i dy start rearrange my things b4 'fong gong' then not good lor, hahaha....on my way back home, again, still like usual, a bit jam, i reli dunno why everyday when i back i need to take almost 20 min only reach home, normally it only took me 10 min to reach office from home,in d morning la, then it takes double the time for me to reach home at 5pm, god ah, stop the jam la...small town like this oso will jam, reli weird la...oh, almost stray away from wat i want to write tim..i heard a nice song from Ai FM, hehe, no more 988 o MYFM for me in sdk la...the DJ promote a song to us, then it is reli good man, thou it is an old song dy, according to him la, i oso not sure, so when i back, i straight online to look for this song, yes, here i present to u a nice song from Guy Sebastian, ~Angels Brought Me Here~ ,an Australian star, with a terrific nice vocal, melt my heart with his song..

GUY SEBASTIAN LYRICS
"Angels Brought Me Here"
[Verse 1]

It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight

Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light

Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies

There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

[Bridge]

My dreams came true, when i found you

I found you, my miracle...

[Chorus]

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers

And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Verse 2]

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again

Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

[Bridge 2]

My dreams came true, right here in front of you

My miracle...

[Chorus]

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers

And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Bridge 3]

Brought me here to be with you,I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)

My dreams came trueWhen I found you

My miracle...

[Chorus]

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers

And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Yes they brought me here... If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

badminton

its been a really long time din play badminton dy lor, went for badminton last nite, wow, not bad ma...but when my engine was jus started up, end dy lor, so cham, so din realy play much, din sweat much, my better than none lor, coz reli long time no exercise dy lor, i don remember when was my last time went for sport, sure very very long time ago lor, no wonder i become so fat dy, my plan for years to keep fit never success at all, coz im a lazy pig pig~~nyiok nyiok~~

cold war

having a cold war with her since yesterday, i oso dunno wat have i done wrong to her, in my memory, i reli din do anything wrong n make her angry, so i reli dunno wat is going on...god, help me, its torturing!!

its been a long time..

its been a long time since my last blogging...lazy to face the computer again after back home from work...however, nothing special happen past last week la...so, nvm la frens, heehhe...just to tell u, i have a really happy n sweet time with Kian for d whole week, coz no quarrels dy ma, sure happy la, hope it will continue like this till forever n ever...hee, hate quarrel ma..

my 1st day of working

din reli sleep well last nite, im not sure im nervous for working today o wat, coz i was in a such bad sleep recently, cant reli sleep well at nite, have to turning round n round then only i can fall asleep after 1 hour o 2, i reli dunno wat happen. kian said i drink nescafe in d morning, hey man, every morning i oso drink la, why last time i won be like tat n now im like this? reli have no idea!
woke up at 6.30am this morning, so early oh ho? but i think, for the rest few months, i have to wake up this morning too lo, reli will going to miss my sleep sleep time oh, n miss my pig pig life too...reach office at 7.50am, a bit early coz my fren haven reach yet, she is d one who will bring me to my head later lor, then sit on d sofa there, saw 2 handsome ter,hahaha, not bad man, but so sad too, coz im not d same office with them, im at d another side, another compartment...din reli do much this morning, my colleague explain to me wat i have to do for my pose, HR + admin clerk...deal with logging camps operation...OMG, 1st time deal with this kind of things, reli dunno how to start, plus my frens not same department with me, so din chat with them, maybe later lo, still got chance ma...in short, my 1st day...jus a normal boring day.

爱情

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在 向他们发火后，自己转过身却在不断 啜泣。其实很多男孩子都不 知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们 的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。 其实很多男孩子都不知道， 女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨 叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。 你要知道，假若她不喜欢你 ，她根本不会来在乎你关心你 ，怕你做错事情。你要知道，假若她 不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火，不 会对你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。你要知道，假若她不喜欢 你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，让 即使生气也不会超过2天。而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这 一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她 。于是，你们时常 争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你 不够迁就她。于是，你们总是冷战， 你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎 她。于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此 错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种 悲伤着的无奈与幸福。要知 道，凄美依然是美的一种， 并且美的绚丽悲，凄凉而沧 桑，那是 更加的美。因为她喜欢你，所以她偶 尔对你发火，时常对你娇。因为她喜 欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因 为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。你 可知道，每个女孩子的心都 是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易 就碰伤摔碎。你可知道，每个女孩子 的心都是不设防的，你那么轻 易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下 伤害。她从来都不 知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她 哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根 本舍不得让她哭。她会很矜持，她会 很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说 着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。请 你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口 是心非。她会看着你转身， 然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时 候，你看不见她的眼泪，滂沱在脸上 心里。如果你喜欢她，请你 多陪她；如果你喜欢她，请 你多宠她；如果你喜欢她，请你多让 她；如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内 心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。 在爱情里，总是彼此伤害， 彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得 激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。可是，爱情里没 有谁对谁错；爱情里更加没有你比我 多我比你少。你爱她，她爱你，如此 就已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害 ，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。你们彼此相 爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜，是快乐 ，不是伤害。不要用沉默宣战，不要 互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷 漠离去。要知道，你离去的时候，你 的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。 越是安静战火就越传，这是冷战也是 彼此的伤害。无论是怎么的复合，那 些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解 她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只 会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。请记 住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战 ，因为冷战带来的 伤害，超 出你的预计。也请记住，只要你喜欢 她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要 你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。那 么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有 的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。也请 记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真 的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真 心话。她只是想你宠她，想你抱她， 哪怕，没有道歉。

start working tml lor~~

surprise!! i got a call this noon at around 3pm, a call from a fren, guess wat, yes, i been accepted to work at d company n im asked to start working tml morning, yes!! finally i got the job, no need to worry anymore lor..however..start worry oso, coz i not sure i can cope with working environment ter o not, i scare cant mix well with the workers ter, yes, it is a big company with many employees..aiks...lot to think of pula...but, jus accept n try my best to adapt to it lor..yeah~~

went for interview

this morning, long time din wake up so early lor, 7.15am dy woke up, why? coz i have an interview appointment at 9am lor, so have to wake up this morning lor, cant be late for an interview mah, bad impression, hehehe! but amazingly, i reach ter at 8.55am, then i left d company at 9.15am. fast le, don forget, i use time to fill in d form as well, so my interview only took not more than 10 min, haha, 1st time i went for an interview tat took such a short time only, well, maybe coz my interviwer not d boss la, she is also a worker in the company, maybe thats d reason lor, a worker interview for a worker, sure won ask much la, she oso dunno wat to ask lor, just asked, u study for education, then why u don wan to become a teacher? if later i hire u, will u resign after several months to go for d government job? haha, sure i won la...do u believe me? hehehe..she said should be no problem for me to work there, but she still needs to inform her boss n need to get her boss's permission to hire me, cham lor, so scare her boss not agree tim..so frens, pray for me to get this job oh, i so need a job now, no money plus so boring at home dy lor, almost 'fat mou' lor~~

blesses on u my dear fren

my dear fren, i always be here for u~blesses on u~

an amulet

Kian gave me an amulet last nite, a thailand amulet, saying tat it can protect me n will make everything i done go smoothly without any obstacles. act not so believe, but i oso believe tat nothing is impossible, so he bought for me, then sure i will wear it. i am very happy n appreciate wat he has done for me, its not about d thing he bought for me, o d money, o anything, but its about his concern n cares for me. everytime he buy something, sure he will think of me n wanting to buy for me too, it is so sweet. im jus an ordinary traditional little sweet girl, hehe, i jus wan more cares from d one i love, tats it, then i will feel satisfy n hangfuk, yes, tat is me, d stupid little girl! having to meet him, know him better n lastly fall in love with him is jus so wonderful to me, thanks god for giving me d chance to love him, thou, v had so much quarrels recently, i jus hope it won happen so frequent now, little quarrel can make a relationship grow more mature but too much of it jus will make everything worse, i reli don hope tat will happen to me n him, blesses on us.

its been d sweetest weekend for me since d last time

last 2 days were d sweetest weekend for me for so long dy, coz he finally spent so much time with me after we had so much quarrels. it was so sweet to spend so much time with him, holding hands to walk in market,(this is d only thing v can do in sdk, no shopping centres for us to go dating lo), have dinner together with his mum, hehee, 1st time out with his mum oh, so nervous oh, scare she doesnt like me much, hope she won la.
long time din feel so sweet dy oh, its reli need time for me to adjust everything then only i won thinking of those not 3 not 4, act im d one oways responsible for d quarrel, thou its not my fault everytime, but im oways d one make everything worse, maybe i reli so 'jin' gua, like to start a quarrel then last last make myself unhappy only, so now, i reli hope i won do tat anymore, coz i scare one day, i ruin my relationship myself. have strength im myself bah, hope i reli won do it again!

job finding

these few days i was so bz looking for a job, bz preparing my resume, bz look tru d newspapers, bz surfing the jobstreet for a high pay job, hehee, hoping so much can get a job soon then at least won be so boring and meaningless at home.

心痛的感觉

以前我都不明白心痛是怎么样的感觉，直到最近，我终于明白心痛是怎么样的感觉。它就好像心脏病的感觉，虽然并不是很清楚心脏病到底是怎样回事，但我想大概也是这样的疼痛罢。它会一下一下抽痛你的心房，让你感觉呼吸困难，让你觉得四肢无力，手脚冰冷。心痛的感觉真的不是很好，它就像偏头痛一样，静静的跟着你，让你不知所措，进退两难。要如何赶走心痛感觉？我也不知道。

my china trip

im back~~

yeah, finally im back from my journey back to china, hahaa, but unexpected, i really went back to my 'gu siang'...

要出国了~~

还有两天时间我就要出国了，去那里？我和我妈妈会回我们的祖国了，bingo!!就是中国也！！这么大的一个女孩，我还是第一次出国呢！但其实并不是太期待，可能是因为去地方都不是的shopping地方吧，哈哈，好现实噢!原本打算今早开始收拾行李的，但时间就这么一分一分过，一天过去了，但我一点也没收拾，真是的。也没话说了。

especially dedicated to you, ivy

歌手：张震岳/mc hotdog/侯 专辑：ok

<<就让这首歌>>
今夜一直重复
我们都没错
只是看清楚
原来不懂的事
没有什么好说
现在先不要说
就让我们沉默
最后的拥抱
爱情的终点
回忆一触即发如何忍住眼泪
不让她哭唏哩哗啦筑就深情这样好吗
从今以后各走各的路
身上留过你的沓图
怎么可能不在乎
不怪现在只怪当初
谁辜负了谁糊涂
清醒了没越是卖醉却不醉
绕了一圈圈越想念谁
吃定了谁电影散场了没
又怎么会虎头蛇尾看你哭红又肿的双眼
一把眼泪一把鼻涕
从喜剧变成悲剧
怎么继续只好放着这首歌曲
她一直用力在听
你是我的另一个人爱这么过瘾
就像生命共同体如今却只能写下这回忆
电影散场之后你是否留下什么
一切不难再重头那感伤对画面说
这决定变得轻松夜深人静心回头
有首歌它一直 repeat repeat 是为了什么
是分手的时候就让我们自由
回忆一幕幕就像一场电影
原来一直感动
电影终要结束结束难免痛苦
心中留下伤痕
就让这首歌萦绕在耳边
我尝试刻画着每一次
曾经快乐的每一日
这首歌要播几次有太多的舍不得事
歌词像针在刺旋律让眼眶湿
曾几何时开始静止打不开的画夹
从你哝我哝的梦到现在你懂我懂的沉默
所有的痛就让时间来破
电影散场之后就在那回首处
你别走回头路
我只能头也不回地藏住感触
少了骗人的拼图怎么拼得出那版图
我真心为你祝福
有没有那么一首歌会让你很想念
有没有那么一首歌你会假装听不见
听了又掉眼泪却按不下停止键
多少的夜就这样开着灯到另一个夜
我们之间有多少故事在这首歌的里面
人不在就让这首歌在回忆也还在
就让这一首歌今夜一直重复
我们都没错只是看清楚原来不懂的事
哦没有什么好说现在先不要说
就让我们沉默
最后的拥抱爱情的终点

最近发现张震岳的歌曲都很好 。偶然发现这首歌，很想让你听听，朋友，你要加油噢，所有的事情都能解决的，只要真心下了决定，我相信你是可以作的到的，我会支持你的，加油加油加油，aza-aza fighting, fight fight fight!!!~~~

一切重头开始

今天和他达成了一个协议，我们决定一切重头开始。我不知道这是一个好的决定或一个不当的想法，一切重头开始？到底是什么意思呢？以前的一切是什么呢？或许我不该再想了，我不想有什么事发生了，就当一切都解决了，一切雨过天晴了。今天和雨诗，丽芳去唱歌，听一首我曾经很喜欢的歌曲。

~beautiful love~

蔡健雅

看住时间
别让它在再流浪
从前我太适应悲伤
你的出现在无意中
却深深撼动我
一起走着没说什么
心是满足的
这个世界
随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着
温热的感受
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着
每秒钟
都能证明一生的美丽
这个世界
随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着
温热的感受
love's beautifu
lso beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着
每秒钟
都能证明一生的美丽
love's beautiful
so beautiful

如果一个男人真的爱你~~

如果一个男人真的爱你,他的手机会 为你24小时开机,在你最需要他的 时候可以随时找到他,因为他爱你, 所以会时时担心你......如果一个 男人爱你,他会很自豪的告诉他的朋 友与家人你是他最爱的女人,当然并不是时时挂在嘴上,而是用 一种行动去告诉别人,你是他最爱的 女人！因为有了你他觉得很骄傲,无论你是不是真的很优秀......如果一个男 人真的爱你,他会把除了工作之外的 很多时间都给你,当然会偶尔和朋友 去聚会,因为 他想时时刻刻都看见你......如 果一个男人真的爱你,他会毫不吝啬 的给你物质上的付出（我并不是说所有的女孩子都应该物质化,这种付出是他心甘 情愿的）因为他觉得他所有 辛苦的努力就是为了让你过上很幸福 的生活,他爱你,不想让你过的那么 艰苦......如果一个男人真的爱你 ,他绝对不会骂你,在你很 任性的时候任你发泄,当你任性过去 的时候,会很委屈的说：“老婆,我 又作错什么了？你可以告诉我,我一 定改,千万不要生气,那样会把身体 气坏的”如果一个男人真的 爱你,你会发现你和他在一起后,不经意间发现你总有很多穿不完的衣服 ,而此时你会发现他的裤子上有个小 洞洞,他会很解嘲的说：“现在不是 流行乞丐服吗？再说男人要有内涵, 穿那么好干什么？”呵呵,因为他总 是看见漂亮的东西就买给你......如果一个男人真的爱你,他就不在 乎陪你逛街会浪费他多少出去自由的机会,因为他甘愿失去 那种所谓的自由......如果一个男人真 的爱你,无论你们在一起多久,都会陪你 一起爬山,看海,看星星,看日落,因为他知道你渴望这样的浪漫......如果一个男人真的爱你,他 绝对不会嚷嚷着叫你去减肥,但是这 个时候你自己一定要去健康减肥,因 为苗条的女人确实可以叫人赏心悦目。因为你的健康是他最关心的......如果 一个男人真的爱你,他不会 留恋与网络与别的小妹眉甜言蜜语,因为对你他都有说不完的爱,哪有那 心思和别人废话......如果 一个男人真的爱你,他不会还和前女 友很密切联系,虽说分手了还是朋友 ,在她困难的时候可以去帮助她,但是不会超过朋 友的底线...... 如果一个男人 真的爱你,他 在每天很辛苦的工作回到家的时候,会抱着你说“老婆,我回来了”他爱 你,他绝对不会把不快乐带给你!......如果一个男人真的爱你,他会 在清晨上班的时候,亲吻你的眼睛, 满足的说：宝贝,我上班去了！”......如果一个男人真的爱你,他绝 对不会忍心背叛你,无论出于什么样 的动机。。因为在他眼里,你是最美的..即便你不是......如果一个男人真的爱你,他 会在你故意说要离开的时候,撒娇的 不和你分开,而在你真的想离开的时 候,就会放你走,即便他真 的不愿意放手。因为他爱你,只希望 你幸福......如果一个男人 真的爱你,那么你会比他的事业更重 要,他绝对不会已事业为借口推脱你 ......如果一个男人真的爱 你,他不会陪这所谓的客户去做所谓 的应酬,(很多男人把找小姐说是谈生意需要）他 宁可不要这个 业务,世界上又不是只有这个业务......如果一个男人真的爱你 ,他绝对不会一次次把你推向那冰冷 的手术台,更不会让你一个人孤孤单 单的去走向那冰冷的世界,,,他会 郑重的说：“把我们的宝贝生下来吧 ！”......如果一个男人真的爱你 ,他会象爱他家人那样爱你的家人, 也会尊重你的亲人和朋友......如果一个男人真的爱你。 。那 么,那么,那么,,,请你珍惜好他 ,好好爱他,为他改掉所有的小姐脾 气,好好的心疼他,理解他,鼓励他 ,支持他！希望并祝福所有 勇敢追求爱的女人幸福......爱是 相互的!

<<思念是一种病>>

<<思念是一种病>>
歌手：张震岳 专辑：ok

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离变成回忆
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那黱美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

这首歌是我偶然一次在astro广告中听到的，在我第一次听到这首歌的时候，我被它那轻松的旋律给吸引住了，http://www.dbs01.net/...7-8/2007830192039.wma 你们可以试听一下唷，是一首很轻轻快的歌曲，希望你们也会想我一样的喜欢。曲中的意思也让我想通了一些东西，我们应该学习如何去珍惜我们身边的一切，我们现在所拥有的一切并不是理所当然的，所以我们应该要好好的去珍惜，惜福，惜缘！

思念谁

今天起来，听到邻居在播放一首巫启贤的旧歌，好久没有到这首歌了，这个时候听到，真的很’“应节”。

<<思念谁>>
你知不知道
思念一个人的滋味
就像喝一杯冰冷的水
然后用很长很长的时间
一颗一颗流成热泪
你知不知道
寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁
你知不知道
痛苦的滋味
痛苦是因为想忘记谁
你知不知道
忘记一个人的滋味
就像欣赏一种残酷的美
然后用很小很小的声音
告诉自己坚强面对
你知不知道
你知不知道
你知不知道寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁

在听完这首歌后，我就很想很想把那时候的心情记录下来，很想他也知道我在思念着他。好矛盾啊，明明就决定不要再那么的想念他，为什么我就不能够做的到？我的爱情是否走进了低潮期？

学习如何放手

今天我想了很多的东西，在想我是否太过份了？也许罢，所以，我决定了，决定了什么？就是放开我自己，只有放开自己我才能快乐，我们才能快乐的走下去。是的，只有这样我们才能快乐的走下去。我应该要学习如何不把他当作我生命的全部，我才会活得比较快乐一点。我在想，当初我在kl得日子是怎么过的，为什么当初我能熬过去呢？因为我有我的生活，每天需要去上课，见教授，做assignment，我的生活是多姿多彩的，所以我并没有多余的时间去想他太多，现在，我希望我也能让自己的生活不再那么的空闲，那么我就没有多余时间去挂念他， 想念他，牵挂他！没有多余的时间那么我的中心就不再以他为主了，那么我我会比现在快乐的多了。
从中国回来后，我会开始找一份工作，然后等待政府召我去面试，然后就开始我那精采的教师生涯。等到一切都平稳的时候，就是我继续我那master degree 的时候了。到时候我想我都会很忙吧，我的生活就不再围绕着他打转吧，你说那会多好，至少我不会像现在那样的难过，痛心及伤心流泪。

wat a week...do you wan my hours??take it plss....

its been a reli torturing week for me, having a continuous quarrel with my another half for a week dy, can u belif tat? a week? we never been like this b4, he was d one oways give up in quarrel n will listen to me watever it is, but now? really f**k off...reli feel so pissed for d whole week...i m jobless now, 24 hours seems to be too much for me, i have nothing to do at all, reli nothing to do, everyday keep repeat doing d same thing, eat, sleep, shit, tv...n i hate myself being a 等爱的女人...wat is tat mean? let me tell u wat is tat mean..everyday i have to wait him call me only, cant call him whenever i wan coz might will BOTHER he working, cant sms him so much as i will BOTHER him working as well, cant ask him to accom me at night coz he is WORKING as well, cant ask him to accom me more coz he is tire, PRESSURES, sleepy n etc etc etc...am i reli tat FREE until i must think those 不三不四?
我真的不知道。以前我们谈的都是远距离的恋爱，当我想他时候我并不能到他，现在大家都在同一个城市，我很想在我想念他的时候我能见到他，我错了吗？以前的不能够在一起，我很想趁我还没有开始工作的时候尽量陪他，一起做一些我们很想一起做的东西，我真的错了吗？我真的要求太过了吗？我的想法是错的吗？难道他都没有这样的想法？难道这一切都是我一厢情愿的？难道我就是那么的不自爱？很讨厌现在的自己...

finally~~

finally im here, BACK~~its been a long time tat i din update my blog dy, act not i don wan to update it la, just each time i wan to log in, its just loading n loading ter, nothing happen, so i think there is something wrong with my connection o my password o anything. howevery, wats wrong with it? its my IE page setting's wrong, today when i try to log in again, i heard a sound 'dak' then i know there is something wrong with my IE la, so i went to my page setting n click some here n ter, then log in again, BINGO~~yeah, finally i can log in my blog again lor, so happy~~
a lot of things happened during my absent in wring my blog, yup, reli kinda a lot of things happen, u wan me to tell u one by one now, act i oso dunno wan to start from where...from where i stop last blog, OMG, cant la, its been 2 months since my last blog, so how can i write it all?? oklah, tell u d most important thing then ok la, finally, i graduated lor, yeah yeah~~ stupid la, wat so happy bout it? still d same ma, i din have an extra pair of wings o wat, still d same MY like b4, with a slightly weight gain(reli slightly??)with a hair cut, then d rest still remain d same, n still jobless, continue d pig life at home everyday, so meaningless man~~so anyone need to hire me? i can do a lot of things oh..hehee, u name it, i'll do it~~

simple gathering...

today woke up quite early, shouldnt be like this but dy used to wake up early early, so it takes some time for me to become a pig back la...
met caroline in d msn, then date her to out makan sama sama, on d spot, without any planning, we manage to get april n connie, go to puchong IOI mall, 1st time going there, wat a new place to me thou it is so near to my place subang now...to be continue

my last friday in ss17.....sob sob, so sad oh

today is a very happy n yet very sad day to me...
to be continue....

my last thursday in ss17

today reli a so so happy day for me...

early in d morning, pn Heng n Amy spend me n pris eat chu cheong fan n kuih, reli so nice n d chu cheong fan reli so delicious, thanks to u oh pn Heng n Amy, they are reli so nice to me during me teaching practice in ss17, they teach me a lot in teaching, tell me what should i do n what i shouldnt do in teaching, help me when i needed a hand there n also talk to me a lot, if not, i will be quite boring there, hehe..they are reli so nice to me, spend me eat a lot along this 11 weeks, hehe..seems i like to eat so much woh...

after my delicious breakfast...i went to help farid to conduct his lab experiment...y im so nice suddenly? coz they are doing a frog dissection oh...yes, i never see any dissection b4 mah, sure wanna be there to geh poh a bit la, so i hang out there for almost 2 periods, walked here n ter to c them cutting d frogs cruelly, hehee, then some students asked me for help..opsss, soli la, i never do tat b4, but i still pretend to know bout it, so just tell them to cut la, don scare, hahaa, then teach them they should do this n tat...haha, dunno i got give d wrong info o not...but reli so excited to c them doing all d dissection, i have no experience in tis, but now, can consider have half la, ahaha, thanks farid to let me in his class, 1st time to in a class with 4sn1 too...

then, studens from 4sk1 came to find me n farid, they invited us to go his class to have a farewell party together with haffis, yes, haffis teaching them science, i only been with them for a few relief classes, they were so sweet to invite us together...n so happy as they bought d secret recipe white chocolate acadamia cake...wow, it is so d**n nice oh, i reli love it wat, wish to have a second slices but shy to ask, then end out eating only one slice, so regret la...took lot of pics with them, n received chocolate from them too, thanks to u oh 4sk1...n so envy haffis, he got a big card from them, a card tat i wish i can get too...very nice n pretty...

then...another cele with 4sn1 during recess time, but i was promised to go cele bday with chinlee, so i skip out for a while to go canteen n cele with her...but, quite paiseh oh, coz canteen ter was pack with lots of ppl, all looking at us coz v bring a cake, all look at us like looking at a monster, hahaa...but nvm, v still celebrating there also, jian sheng, boon giap, sook peng n su chian are there too to cele with chin lee.. eat cake again, tiramisu..ops...soli ya, i din put it in d freeze so it melted dy, soli so much...but still taste nice mah, so ok la..hehe...happy birthday to u o chin lee~~~

then, fin cele with chinlee, i go back to makmal kimia 1, then, cake again, oso from secret recipe, this time is chocolate flavour, my favourite...but guess wat..by the time i ter, they said, opsss,soli teacher, v dy fin it oh, v din know u so late oh....what d...not angry la, just cant eat my chocolate, so sad ma, but after tat, a student don wan to eat n give me her/his part, thanks a lot..then finally, get mine, ahaha...so greedy, ppl din say wanna spend me eat also la..ahahaha..then farid buy many cakes too, they din fin it, so i help him to keep in d room ter..left 3 more cakes...haha, dunno how he is going to fin it, so last last he put in d staff room n let d teachers eat them...not bad oh..

after that, i went in 4sk2 for another celebration again, is pris class, i just tumpang makan, but when i was ter, my stomach protest to me dy,telling tat they cant fit in anymore food, but, since i was ter dy, sure i cant run away dy...so, again, cheese cake n banana cake, OMG, reli OOMG, i eat so many cakes dy for d whole morning, thou cakes are nice, but how can a ppl eat so many in just a morning? so when saw d cake...feel...my god, help me....hehe,kidding la, act i like cakes so much, esp chocolate one...

noon time, puan Chong bring us, me n pris for lunch, which Chong, not which, but both, both puan Chong kl and Puan chong ah loi brought us tp ss15 n have a lunch, kind of farewell, n with alasi(dunno how to spell, our pejabat staff, going to leave on fri too) too...went to have a simple lunch, din reli eat much, as i reli cant fit in more dy, my fei tou lam so big dy, hahaa, cant hide under my cloth dy lo, since wearing a fit skirt summore.....reli so happy oh, teachers treat us so nice....

then, after lunch, my tk class said they still wan to have extra class for physics, but kononnya saja la right? coz they ask farid to come back too, sure something is on behind our knowlodge la, so i oso pretend dunno lor, ahhaa, it was so happy to know that they are having a farewell party for us, not only cake...yes, this time is my favourite chocolate cake, they also ordered Dominoes oh...wow...should be very delicious but....i just took my lunch, luckily i din eat much, then i can fit in d cake n dominoes too lor...thanks to u all oh 4tk...muaks...so touch oh...all of them stay back to have d farewell for us...

after all eating eating n eating, went to have bowling with farid n haffis, long time no play bowling dy, like i said, sure will cuci longkang one, so, without any surprise, i almost cuci longkang everytime i play, so sh*t la...but i got strike oso la, not too bad is it? its only d 3rd time i play bowling mah, don laugh at me pls...hehe~~

its been reli a happy day for me, thanks to u all, thanks to farid n haffis too...

my last wednesday in ss17

today reli a very happy n enjoyable day for me.

as i said earlier, today i have a combine class at 4sn2 with priscilla at lab, so early in d morning, i dy planned with pris as i go to open d lab 1st and wait for her n d whole class to come to d lab, however, b4 d bell ring, sin ai n su chian came to d staff room, and asked me free o not to enter their class during pris period, then i told her, sure i will be there as i dy planned vf pris...then, v suspected something, hehee...sure d class will have some surprise for us...so v just wait n c...but...puan Chong was using d makmal fizik 1, so we moved to makmal kimia 1. b4 d whole class was here, sook peng, sin ai, chin lee, su chian n yik pheng were the earliest to reach d lab, however, somehow somewhat puan Chua saw them taking a cake to d lab, so...u know i know la, with so negotiation, she din take action on us, but we were not allow to eat in d lab...oh ya, d surprise from 4sn2 to both me n pris is a cake...so, we din eat in d lab, as i will have 2 relief class with them too during d last 2 periods, so we decided to cele at 12pm~~then, a photo taking session...hard to control them in d lab, but luckily, they are quite ok today, coz can take pic with me n pris ma, for d last time ma, since this is our last lesson last class with them...so v reli did a lot of photo taking, with whole class, personal n so on...lets look at d class photo...not so perfect la thou...but stil very nice...gonna miss u all oh 4sn2...

a nealy 1hour some sort of gathering with d class, reli so happy la, took reli lot of pics, so those who bring d cameras, plz give me d photos later ya...either upload in frenster o wat..i oso dunno la, not reli have all ur frenster also...but i will upload d photos in my frenster la...oh ya, i saw yik pheng pretend to be a nerd today, reli so funny n he does look like a nerd, an old fashion like nerd...make me laugh so much, anyhow, its not so nice la, somehow like insulting them...but ok la, its so funny, just don do it so frequent la...

so during recess time, farid has a small gathering with 4tk, haffis, pris n me are invited to join them, so, a free cake n drink from farid, hehee, thanks ya...we curi-curi makan in makmal kimia 1...shhhhhhhh......pls don tell puan Chua, if not, v will die la, don let us die in our last week in ss17 pls....sure again, taking photos with tk class, but mine camera dy showing 'change d battery'...OMG, so cant take pics of them, just use haffis cam to do it...

last 2 periods, went in 4sn2 class, so this time, a cake eating session, hehee...is a cheese cake, reli look so nice n so delicious, n i ate 2 slices, hehhe...greedy meng yee here...thanks to u all oh for d cake...muaksssssss......again, wanna take pics, but...soli la, all d cameras also no batt dy, ahhaa, so just left yik pheng n chris camera got batt...take some more pics then...when talking with all d students, reli make me feel so ng seh dak to leave them, got little chung dung to cry, but sure la, im so strong mah, so i tahan lor, its a happy moment mah, a happy celebration, so shouldnt cry in d middle of d party ma right? later all feel so weird tat...wah, why miss chin so cha oh, cry in our class, then spread over d school...OMG, so paiseh wut...so..won cry in d school la, after school maybe la...hahhaa...

after school, another program for our 4 trainees here, we went to have d chicken buffet at sunway, sit there for almost 2 hours, n v reli ate a lot, hehe, sure wut, v dy paid for it, sure should eat more mah, but d choices not much also, only a few of it i like to eat, hey, don misunderstanding, im not choosy in food la, just they don look nice so i din eat la...show u my 2 handsome frens here...cute leh...

today reli a very very happy day for me, mayb coz feel relief coz working life going to end soon, but... as ppl said...graduate = jobless...hai...yupe, i will jobless for at least half a yr...so anyone got job intro to me...if d job only require ppl sit ter n d pay is very high, pls inform me, haha...

my last tuesday in ss17

my last tuesday in ss17, not so bad, today have a final class vy 4sn2, coz tml plan to combine class with priscilla and have a 1hour plus talking n present giving session with them, actually we dy malas wan to teach, hahaa, hope they won mind la, so sin ai, don worry, i sure will have a class photo taking with ur class n post in my blog here too...my last class with 4sn2, giving them exercise to do, hope those who never pass up anything can at least today pass up the paper for me, but, hai...u know i know la, their attitude never change, but i still happy to have them as my students....talked to zhe ang today, on his problems, for almost half an hour, i reli know that he facing a reli serious problem now, in study n family, i hope his problems can b fixed soon n able to do things he reli wants to do most....all d best oh zhe ang...i know he won know wat i wrote bout him lah..hehee...
today help farid to relief peralihan class, wow, they still d same...noisy n naughty...they cant reli sit down n have a minute of silence, i wonder how their teachers manage to teach them, some teachers complain that they are not monkey, instead they are GHOST, hahahaa...coz monkey will at least have a minute of silence but GHOST reli no...haha..but they are cute, when they talk to u nicely, they are reli cute, just like a little brother of urs, so cute n...annoying, hahhaa...
after school, went to have lunch with farid, haffis, ina n kak imah at carrefour Ayamas...have a nearly 1hour talk with them, so happy...act working at ss17 reli a happy moment n a reli good experience for me, i do learn a lot of things here, how to teach, how to communicate with students, how to get close with them, try to use all d teaching methods, c which one is applicable to d studens...n all d senior teachers are reli so so so nice to us, teach us so much to become a teacher....thanks to ss17, gonna miss ss17 so so much...oh ya oh...should take some pic of ss17...tml should go n take some...ehhee..then when i old enuf, i still can remember how my 1st school look like...

my last monday in SS17

today is my last monday, last assembly in SS17 dy, feel little so...sad during the asseembly, besides feel nervous for wanting to present our present to puan Asmah...looking at d students, so many of them i know, thou i din teach them, but i do go in their class for relief so many times, yes, i have many relief classes for a week, more than d periods that i have to teach..hehehe...a student gave me present too today, food, some what like a mooncake, not bad, thanks to her, see min, if i din write her name wrongly..i taught her mathematics, for extra class la, i din reli go to teach her class, 4sk3, a class with nice students too...

today is my last class with 4tk, my physics class, did some exercises with them, then i gave them a little souvenir from me as a rememberance..feel like ng seh dak la, got a moment feel like crying but sure din do tat la, so paiseh la if i reli did tat, so they looked ng seh dak me la, i not sure they meant it o not, but with them, i do have a nice time, esp when we went to penang together during school holidays...thou they reli weak in physics, but they reli willing to learn, n i reli appreciate that they do concentrate in my teaching, make me feel like i reli have to big responsibility to teach them n make them understand, make me feel that, im reli a teacher, hehee, cheh..im working as a teacher mah, sure im a teacher wut..took a picture with them all, not all la, 2 ppl not here today...let me show u...

they are so cute right? going to miss them all...hope they will miss me too, hehe...

my life~~

i was reading my frens blogs for weeks, then suddenly, i wish to have a blog for myself, i not sure who will view my blog in d future, just feel wanna write down my feeling everyday (if can la, i oso dunno i will log in n write my blog everyday o not)!
today, my lecturere came for d last time, 5 times dy, then he told me: i came here today coz i wan to make sure that u deserve an A-....cheh...i tot got another observer come today, made me so nervous for 2 days, luckily din reli do extra things, hahaha, bad meng yee...hope can get an A, but A- oso not badla, at least d png won so bad, then won pull down my pngk so much...finally, my observation can come to an end dy...thou i dy start relaxing since last week, hehee...came back from school, tot can have a reli nice sleep, but dunno why, cant sleep well woh..maybe too excited, hahahaa...so hunry, going to cook soon, n again, my cooking life will come to an end soon, since next sun i will move in to my sis place at cheras, no chance to cook, dunno i will miss my cooking life o not le...
a student gave me a present today, so sweet, yes, she gave me a big bottle of sweets, thanks to you Sin Ai, she is reli a nice n hardworking girl, reli nice to meet her here in SMK ss17, of course, all d students here are reli nice n active...feel happy to teach at ss17...met a lot of nice ppl here, all d teachers are reli so nice n willing to teach us...thanks to you all...if i have time, let me write a blog on my happy time in ss17...going to miss you all...