feel stress in working again

today..heard bout many rumors at school, made me feel down at school all day, plus din sleep well last nite, made my day more miserable...
day by day, feel tat teaching is reali not tat suitable for me...but in some other ways...i love teaching as well...so, it makes me feel so 'mao dun'...i felt dat i reli not so good in controling students, i not fierce, i don like to scold students, maybe bcoz of this, they don reli sacre of me...ppl will say dat i should be more firm n scold students whenever it is needed..but i reli don like to do it, i don feel dat scolding them will make things better, n yet it jus will ruin the relationship n make them don like to listen to my teaching...but not scolding them, sometimes they will tend to ignoring me...this is d thing that make me so sad recently...
i like my sons n daughters...i mean d class i handling...but, bcoz of my mercy, they start making so much noises whenever i enter their class...until today..i reali cant take it anymore, then i did something stupid n something dat i shouldnt do in front of them...feel so dump...n make me feel reli disappointed with them...i treated them so well but in d end...wat i deserve? maybe i shouldnt say like this, coz they r jus little children...13 n 14 yrs old only, but...it reali make me feel so sad...is it i treated them too well dy? should i change? yes...i think i should change...
things reli din go well with me recently...maybe i need another change? i need fresh air~~

纯纯的恋爱

以前。。。

因为暗恋，而看爱情小说

因为暗恋，而拼命写情书

因为暗恋，而学说更多好话

因为暗恋对方 所以想靠近对方

暗恋一个人真的可以什么都不计较

可以为他抄功课

可以当他的司机

为他折一千颗幸运星

代价就为了和对方去看一场电影

用打电话的方式向对方表白

用写信的方式向对方表白

用表白的方式向对方示爱

虽然失败但也是勇者

恋爱时，非常会幻想

幻想一起走沙滩，一起步入教堂

想着他时总是，好像变成天使不停飞

课本里的文字变成了他/她的名字

每个女生/男生的背影好像都是他

喜欢一个人，

会在房间贴满了她的照片

在书里放满他的照片

脑海里充满他的影像

想着对方，想到不舍得睡觉

梦里总是有他的出现

常常为了见她一面，常跑去厕所

因为他的课室在厕所旁边

常常为了见她一面，跑去和对方做同一辆巴士

常常为了见她一面，跑到他家附近兜

上课时常常望着他

看到他和异性谈话，就会有无名的醋味

热切的想谈恋爱

一天到晚看爱情小说

一天到晚听情歌

一天到晚沉迷在爱的海里

最后什么都可以忽略

常常为了成为对方理想的恋人

最后都迷失了自己

总相信着

爱情不分年龄的

爱情是不分种族的

爱情是不分国际的

爱情是不分男女的

恋爱后总希望能与对方天长地久

24小时都希望能与他一起度过

每天都包电话粥

想更了解他/她

为他付出是件幸福的事

男友/女友就变成了所有一切

但都忘了现实的世界

恋爱的付出可不简单

很多人已忘了恋爱的意义

希望这简单的文章能让一些人回味

回味那纯纯的恋爱感

希望有情人终成眷属

hari ini dalam sejarah

yeah~~wat would be the story for today? u will never guess...yeah~~finally i went to curl my hair this noon after school time...act ive been thinking of it since monday, when i saw a colleague of mine went to curl her hair during the holiday...it is so pretty..so since then, i was thinking of perm my hair for days dy, then finally in this very historical moment..at 1.30pm, i reached saloon there, n i decided to perm my hair...hahahaa....yes~~MY finally change her out look dy..then the Q is...how i look like now? i wish can upload a photo now but im using my bro's com...so, fres..wait me ya..sure i will upload a pretty photo of mine asap...yupe, i like my new hair style pretty much..am i look old now? no la...a bit more mature la...hahahaa(trying my best to cheat myself now)~~~