my life...

a busy week~~

2010-08-11T20:01:00.002+08:00

wish to have a post too since i saw a frenof mine post something on her blog n eventually change d template of her blog as well...she was having a stress life n that make me think of mine too..i have an extremely busy week, as Excel PMR jus ended, n as a f3 teacher, i have to mark all the papers in a less than a week time as d school rules said tat: teachers must return the test papers to students after 1 week from then last day of test/exam...gosh...reli so rush n i have so much to do in school...things never finish~~SHIT~thinking n thinking...all those busy stuffs are school works, none of them is my personal thing, that's bad, busy for work only, i not wish to become a work maniac...i wan a normal life only, i jus wan to go school on time, back home on time, not liek now, having to mark papers at home..that;s pity!cham~~

went to have my hair done this noon...wish to have a fresher look but i still look d same afterall...hahahaa...din do much change on my hair coz i was afraid to do so..as age increase, i like to remain things unchange, so that i won feel hard to cope with it strat from d beginning...old ppl's thinking, tat's bad...

女生的痛，男生永远不懂!

2010-05-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

男生永远不懂，为什么女生会那么的依赖你，那是因为她把你当做她的唯一，最信赖的人。男生永远不懂，为什么女生在你不给她打电话的时候会很生气，因为她想要听到你的声音，感觉你的疼爱。男生永远不懂，女生为什么会爱生气，因为她只是想要你来哄她，回味你们之间的温存。男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么爱吃醋，那是因为她爱你，而容不下一点你给其他女生的任何一点温柔。男生永远不懂，为什么女生爱唠叨让你少抽烟，少喝酒，女生也知道那不可能，但是她担心你的身体。男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么多的眼泪，那是因为她将所有的委屈都化做泪水，而把所有的温柔都留给你。男生永远不懂，女生愿意为你东奔西跑、为你做很多事，只是因为爱你，而并不是为了显示自己比你强。男生永远不懂，女生会在很晚的时候打电话给你，不是不信任你，只是突然很想你，想听听你的声音。男生永远不懂，女生会想要知道你的一切，想为你分担事情，那是因为她只想要自己是你最亲密的人。男生永远不懂，当分手来到时，女生那坚强的语言后面是多么伤的伤痛！男生永远不懂，分手后女生不是不痛，而是痛到连看到你就会无法自拔！男生永远不懂，女生的爱是那么深。一旦爱上就不能自已。隐瞒的那么深，不要带给你困扰！而自己哭泣！男生永远不懂，女生的爱！女生的爱脆弱又坚强，不要欺骗玩弄感情。女孩狠起心来是不要命的。男生永远不懂,当你说不爱她了。她不会缠着你。只要你快乐，她愿意放开你。男生永远不懂，女生在分手后那笑的背后有了多少的悲痛！如果爱，请深深的爱她，对她负责，给她一生幸福。如果不爱，请不要享受她的独爱，放开她，让别的男人来给她幸福。不要挥霍爱情，爱情挥霍完了，就会挥霍了她的生命。

a boring day

2009-12-01T20:12:00.002+08:00

yes, its a boring day...woke up at 12.45...hahahaa, don be shocked, coz im shock too...its been a long time tat i din sleep for so long dy. feel so nice, but too bad, coz nothing left for me to eat, so i have to cook maggie for myself, then stick with the tv for the whole noon again, then finally, i have finished watching 宫心计, feel so good...then went to yoga, after 1 week of relaxing...my bone so hard dy, hahahaa....cant reli stretch so much during d yoga, have to spend more time in doing this again...today is jus a normal day..

kk...im coming

2009-11-26T20:54:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah yeah...another 6 hours, then i will start my journey to kk lor...wait me kk...im coming...hahahaha....its been a long time din go kk lor...act, it was jus around half a yr only la, i was in kk last harvest...hai, miss d time going shopping mah..but this time, shopping is not d main point for me, jus wan to go relax a bit after half yr of stress in working n everything...Kian oso feel d same, he was facing so much stress recently, from his superior n working oso not so smooth like b4..hope this trip can bring energy to both of us n for sure, need to throw all those unhappy things behind during this 3 days of holidays...yeah yeah..kk, im coming lor...

2nd day of holiday=working day

2009-11-24T20:04:00.002+08:00

yupe...it is my working day today..went to a kursus Probim anjuran PPD at SMK Sandakan 2 this morning, d surat panggilan written, masa: 7.30 am - 4.30 pm...so, i became a guai guai teacher, woke up early early n reach ter sharp 7.30am, but guess wat...i waited for 35 minutes only those in-chage ppl showed up...reli...government servant's service so so good, oways serve ppl smart..hai..wat a...

it was such a boring course, but yet, some of d idea given reli can apply in teaching in d future lor, still got learnt something la, but...d course ended at 5.05pm..yupe, i spent 9 hours n 35 minutes on d course...n i learnt only a bit useful ways to teach weak students...hai...n during my course, i used some of my time chatting with fren...n able to surf tickets to Bangkok next yr...planning a DIY trip reli headache, coz i dunno where should i stay or where must i ter when in B..so i msg yung yung, ask him to ask his mum for a cheap n nice hotel where is near d town n convenient to tourist like me...who reli dunno to plan something perfectly..so, yung yung, if u able to read this, remember to help me ask ur mum or when u in B now, help me do some research so that i won miss out any tourist attractions when i reli able be in B oh..ok?

苏打绿 <<小情歌>>

2009-11-23T14:48:00.003+08:00

这是一首简单的小情歌

唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了

这是一首简单的小情歌

唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老

1st day of holidays~~

2009-11-23T14:38:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah~~its holidays for me again...hehe, soli for those tat cannot have holiday now ya...Kian keep asking me whether im sien or not...sien wat? he said, sien coz have long holidays again lor, hahaha...yaya, quite sien if nothing can do, but for me, this time d holidays not reli a holidays for me lor, coz, i keep thinking of how to teach next yr lor, since the students next year are so 'good'..esp those in tat class...hai, reli headache when think of dat...am i reli can handle them? i don think i can do tat lor...normally i jus let them do wat they wan to do lor, i have no gas to shout at them n ask them do this n that...im not a good teacher instead ma...think of need to teach chinese again, then i feel so bad bad mood dy, not i don like chinese, but truly, i reli dunno how to teach lor, i will keep on giving exercises only lor...so don blame me on that oh...blame d ppl who give me d task lor...

tot today can take my atos out dy, but who knows, ah man din drive d car out n when v reached ter, d car is not ter, when v called him, he din answer d phone, kian was so hot dy, i reli scare he will explde when ah man call him later...i was so scared to talk to him too, his face is so black...d moral of d story, never kacau those ppl when they are in bad bad mood...if not, u tanggung urself la...

stomachache..

2009-11-18T09:08:00.002+08:00

stomach feeling so blur blur since yesterday noon after lunch at ka hiong...feel so weird la, its not d 1st time im eating ter, plus d rice i ordered, i tried it for many times dy, why still will stomachache? after badminton at hakka with annie, yap n jet, still felt d same, still so pain pain in d stomach, like ter is a bug inside, biting me once in a while to let me suffer...hai...cham..this morning, went to toilet twice dy too, cham cham...i don like feeling like this...

imbalance again

2009-11-16T20:06:00.002+08:00

feeling imbalance again today, y will be like this? coz of d meeting lor...it was d mesyuarat guru yang terakhir for this yr...so d principal was giving speech at d beginning...walau eh...i dunno y this principal will be like this lor, jus know how to criticise d teachers for not doing well in some stuff but never giving us any appreciation or compliment...is she reli think v can do everything perfectly? v are not a saint, v are jus human being, so being imperfect in some stuff jus normal to us lor, but how she react? I don think any of us like how she comment on us lor, coz, thou v know v din do well, but not jus like a shortgun there, shooting us like v meant to be shoot...hai...make me feel so imbalance, feel so down in working, luckily it is d last week dy, i can relax n re-energise myself b4 need to face her again in d future...
not only her, when i got to know wat i need to teach next yr, make me feel so so imbalance again, i know i need to teach math n chinese again next yr, ok bah, i dy accept it, but y wan to put me in psk again? dont they know its dy very heavy for me to teach 2 main subjects, why still wanna put me under psk again? am i reli so fresh until they know i won able to rebel? its ridiculous...feel so sad about d arrangement done by d barisan pentadbir, v have so many new teachers around, why jus don leave some for them? why must me?...feeling so so imbalance again today...im reli having a bad yr ahead...help!!~~~

boring weekend..

2009-11-14T14:14:00.002+08:00

long time din reli spend time at home on weekend...this morning kian went to Pamol for work, so din able to bring me for badminton, so i have to stay at home n rest...kononnya rest, but use almost all d time facing d computer...play cafe world..yes, a mini game in Facebook, i was so addicted to d game recently, almost everyday have to open n c d dishes i cook, haha, like i m so good in cooking..jason sticks with me all d time, looking all d things inside my room, seems like wanna find something n ask me to give him, yes, he is d king in this house, if he wans something, v must give to him, if not, he will be like a bee..keep on asking for it until v surrender...hai...but he is cute..n everyone put all d love on him...wat to do? Tian is no more around us, he is d only one that v count on...thinking of Tian this morning, wonder if he is still here, how nice it would be...hanging around with me...i m so regret i din spend more time with him before, looking at d pic tat i stick on my wardrobe's door...i miss him so much...tears still will dropping down when i think of him...yes, i still cant forget the time v had shared b4..may God be with him!

good students...end of sem 2 2009

2009-11-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

feeling better

2009-11-13T23:48:00.003+08:00

after 3 days of imbalance working days...these 2 days finally feeling better...yesterday was d convocation n today is d anugerah cemerlang...yesterday i was d mc of d day, it was d 1st time being a mc, not bad, hehehee...i was so nervous at d beginning, i think its normal, then getting better after dat..hope it will be d 1st n last being mc for me, i don like the feeling of being mc, coz i reli don feel convenient standing in front of a big crowd n need to keep smiling at them, thou today i think i din do so, coz i feel so 'keras' when i wanna smile, of coz la, i was so nervous ma, how come still can smile to d crowd? so once after d ceremony, feel so relieve, reli so relieve, it was so stress when standing in front...then, felt so hungry, ate a lot after dat..hahaaa...my keep fit plan has failed again..

today is d anugerah cemerlang ceremony, haha, im not d mc, so i was so relax...din reli show up during d ceremony, keep hiding myself inside d staff room, wanna relax...so again, my keep fit plan failed today, ate a lot again, even jus now i went to supper as well..hai...u say lor, how can i slim down le? once stress, i eat, once relax, i eat oso...so this kind of ppl how can slim down? reli dunno how lor...jus hope i won gaining so much weight in these 2 days lor...

secret recipe finally here in sandakan, went with colleagues after school...

another imbalance day

2009-11-11T15:51:00.002+08:00

after last nite, i tot i back to normal again, feel ok with all those pressures n unhappy things, who knows, today feel imbalance again...coz heard a such bad news of myself...i admit it was my fault, but still feel like...what is she doing? why is she doing all this to us?
i was not in d class last tues, i felt so frustrated with the mc speech...ya, can u imagine? i am going to be d mc for tml's convocation ceremony..who d hell in d world tell them that i can become a mc? i feel so shocked n puzzled when i 1st knew about this...but wat can do? i cant reject it..coz im still fresh in d school, i have to follow every instructions given by d upper boss..therefore, when i 1st given d speech, i was so desperate, i dunno how to translate at all, so i used a lot of time to translate it n after all translation, i felt so heachache...so i decided not to go in d class...ya, for d 1st time in life i din go in d class n i kena dy...reli WTF!so this morning when i heard from d students, i knew dat d principal has found out it was my class during dat time n i wasnt in d class...walau eh...so down oh when i knew about it...i reli feel so imbalance again, feel like d principal will surat amaran me soon n felt so insecure, i am so bad luck recently la...all not going smoothly...was so bad luck for weeks dy...not only work things, family as well...haiz....wat happen to me? y d god was not beside me?

imbalance

2009-11-10T18:36:00.001+08:00

miserable day

2009-11-08T21:08:00.002+08:00

woke up quite early this morning, promised K to have breakfast with him at Sim-Sim ter, tot the food is nice there but end up...so so only...then...back home to sleep again, hahaha...coz din reli have enuf sleep last nite, play cafe world till 11 something, felt myself being attracted by d game so much until cant leave it out for even 1 day..cham...start morning, it was such a nice day with K, have nice conversation all d way, but who knows...end up i was so sad...having a little argument with him...making myself so miserable...y such a thing could be happened? reli dunno...bad mood...

life reli full of so many unpredictable things...something that v take it for granted might one day end up with something v din even expected it to be happened...heard a lot of stories bout this, so sometimes i wonder...y i don live happily for today? who knows wat would happend to me d next seconds? i oways will think like tat, but not reli can do it la:P everyday reading d newspaper...everything come across my sight are so ugly...A killed B, C raped D, E cheated F for money...even teachers oso forced students to do something not good jus for his/her pleasures...y d world today become like this? wat happen to d human's brain?

kaki khinzir...

2009-05-09T12:02:00.002+08:00

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

2009-04-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

喜歡和愛咫尺千里。當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

can i be tough?

2009-02-05T19:54:00.002+08:00

mum told me during dinner time, dat jason n his family will be coming back tomolo evening...they finally back sdk, but, without tian around us anymore...d feeling of heart breaking come back to me so deep again now...i tought i m ok, i already accepted d truth, but deep down in my heart, i never let go at all...when i went to tian's wardrobe jus now, tears dropping down again, those happy memories again appear in front of my eyes, it jus like wat had happened yesterday..i wonder b4, n now again, how am i facing jason n his family? all i remembered is...jason n tian, they jus like twins...jason oways follow wat his brother do, but now, without him around, what wil he do? will he cry? when i look at him, will i cry? i reli dunno...i cant imagine d situation...mum said...she doesnt know how to face his mother n how his mother face my mum as well...yes, it is true...to us, thou tian not reli my bro, v have no blood relation at all, but he already is my little bro, my family, he jus like son of my mum, coz i oways tease mum dat, hey, ur big son..ur small son...means tian n jason...i reli dunno how they react tml when my dad n mum go to fetch them at airport..but 1 thing i can be sure, tears will drop...his mum, cant accept d truth tat tian is not around anymore, yes..not only her i think, anyone dat know tian, will feel d same too...coz, he reli such a wonderful kid...those days never exist anymore, try accept d truth? easy to say, hard to make it happen...everyone jus need time...i jus need more time!

i will miss you forever, i love u!

2009-02-03T18:30:00.002+08:00

it was such a shock n heart break news when my mum told me about it...i never expected tat will be happened at all, not him, not now, not when he is not around us...he is such a cute, sweet n obedient little bro to me, i will never thought tat to be happened at all..30 Jan 2009...a date tat i will never forget, a cruel day tat God has taken u away from me, tian, my beloved little bro, i will miss you forever and i love u!
it has been 4 days after d news, today, i become more brave n happier a bit compare to 3 days ago...tears been dropping again n again when i think of tian...all those happy memories...i will never forget...he gave me so much all these years...yes...10 years already, he has been living n sharing all ups and downs with me n my family for 10 years already...i still remember his last conversation with me, when he was in kk airpoirt, waiting to leave for Sibu, he said...he wanna take his hot dog 1st, then he will call back again..he said goodbye to me, he said...goodbye 二美女...yes..he is a sweet kid..he always know how to tam me...all his little actions and little funny words, i still can remember...i remember he said when he come back from sarawak, he wanna watch his dvd dat my sis bought for him...but...he never will come back anymore...i cant control my tears from dropping down when i think of this...he will never come back again...i was wondering so many days...wat had happened to him...i do not know, n i scare to ask...coz i do not know i can bear the truth or not...he has gone...all i know is he will never sa jiao with me anymore...10 years...it has been such a long period...i still remember, i asked him once...wat will u do when u grow up? will u still remember me n my mum? he said...sure i will remember u all, i still wan to earn more money n support us, he meant a lot to my mum, my dad, my sis, my bro n me...tian...i love u!

last day in year 2008

2008-12-31T13:03:00.002+08:00

31/12/2008...last day of year 2008...how are u going to cele this day? stay at home? going out vf buddies? going to get drunk?...
last nite when i went to sleep, i made a wish..ya, a wish, wat did i wish? hahaha...i hope i can wake up early today, but d fact is, i still woke up at 11am this morning...'sigh' how am i going to start working soon? where i need to wake up at 5.30am? i wonder...when i think of school going to start soon...headache...coz i din go any preparation for it, none, zero bite...cham lor...later when reli start lesson, wat am i going to teach? 'sigh' this is a lazy cmy...
so...a new year is coming, wat did v do in d 2008? have u think back on d whole jan - dec 2008, wat did u do? wat decision dat u made n change ur life? did u change ur job? or have u change ur bad habit? ur bad attitude? did u find ur love one? or u got married? got a new born baby?...
yr 2008...is d year i start my teaching life, n i need to teach for 30++ years if i don quit in d middle..wah, wat a figure...other than tat...wat did i do? an obvious change...i gain weight again..hahahaha...reli become a fat fat cmy dy..haizzz....
my brain is so blur when i wanted to think back wat did i do in 2008 oh...so i reli din do anything? cant be la, there must be something special o new tat i did in 2008, but why i cant remember? oh no...i must try my best to think back...

笑死人的十二星座 .....

2008-12-23T14:14:00.001+08:00

白羊座 :
妈妈经常叮嘱羊羊： ' 穿裙子时不可以荡秋千；不然，会被小男生看到? 面的小内
裤哦！ '
有一天，羊羊高兴地对妈妈说： ' 今天我和小明比赛荡秋千，我赢了！ '
妈妈生气地说： ' 不是告诉过你吗？穿裙子时不要荡秋千！ '
羊羊骄傲地说： ' 可是我好聪明哦！我把 ? 面的小内裤脱掉了，这样他就看不到我
的小内裤了！ '
<勇敢直率、敢做敢为的白羊）

金牛座 :
卖瓜小贩： ' 快来吃西瓜，不甜不要钱！ '
饥渴的牛牛： ' 哇！太好了，老闆，来个不甜的！ '
（持家、想出轨又顾全自己的金牛）

双子座 :
妈妈叫双双起床： ' 快点起来！公鸡都叫好几遍了！ '
双双说： ' 公鸡叫和我有什麼关系？我又不是母鸡！ '
（自我意识强烈、自行思维的双子）

巨蟹座 :
公车上，蟹蟹说： ' 今晚我要和妈妈睡！ '
妈妈问道： ' 你将来娶了老婆也和妈妈睡阿？ '
蟹蟹不假思索： ' 嗯！ '
妈妈又问： ' 那你老婆怎麼办？ '
蟹蟹想了半天，说： ' 好办，让她跟爸爸睡！ '
妈妈： ' ！＠＃＄％︿＆＊（ …… -'
再看爸爸，已经热泪盈眶啦！
（恋母情结、依恋的巨蟹）

狮子座 :
狮狮去参加奶奶的寿宴。到了吃寿包的时 ? 狮狮问： ' 我们为什麼要吃这种像屁
股的寿包？ '
众人听了脸色大变。
接着狮狮拨开寿包，看看 ?面的豆沙，说： ' 奶奶，快看！ ? 面还有大便！ '
众人晕的晕，吐的吐。
（以自我感受、不怕旁人眼光的骄傲的狮子）

处女座 :
处处对肚脐很好奇，就问爸爸。
爸爸把脐带连着胎儿与母体的道理简单地讲了一下，说： ' 婴儿离开母体之后，
医生把脐带减断，并打了一个结，后来就成了肚脐。 '
处处： ' 那医生为什麼不打个蝴蝶结？ '
（好奇心强又追求完美的处女）

天秤座 :
父亲对天天说： ' 今天不要上学了，昨晚．．．你妈给你生了两个弟弟。你给老
师说一下就行了。 '
天天却回答： ' 爸爸，我只说生了一个；另一个，我想留着下星期不想上时再
说！ '
（聪明、权衡利弊的天平）

天蠍座 :
蠍蠍刚睡着，就叫蚊子叮了一口。
他起来赶蚊子，却怎麼也赶不出去。没法，便指着蚊子说： ' 好吧，你不出去我
出去！ '
边说边出了房间，把门使劲关严得意地说： ' 哼！我今晚不进屋，非把你饿死不
可！ '
（搞不懂、不按常理出牌的天蠍）

射手座 :
射射： ' 爸爸，为什麼你有那麼多白头发？ '
爸爸： ' 因为你不乖，所以爸爸有好多白头发阿。 '
射射： …… （疑惑中）
射射： ' 那为什麼爷爷全部都是白头发？ '
爸爸：！＠＃＄％︿＆＊ ! （ ……
（喜欢思考的射手）

摩羯座 :
一天，羯羯跟妈妈上街；走在路上，突然下起雨来。
妈妈拉过羯羯的小手，说： ' 下雨了，快往前跑阿！ '
羯羯慢条斯理地问： ' 那前面就不下雨喽！？ '
（明白现实懒得改变的摩羯）

水瓶座 :
瓶瓶问妈妈： ' 为什麼称蒋先生为『先人』？ '
妈妈说： ' 因为 ' 先人 ' ! 是对死去的人的称呼。 '
瓶瓶说： ' 那去世的奶奶是不是要叫『鲜奶』？ '
（天生的另类、脑筋思考永远和常人不一样的水瓶）

双鱼座 :
爸爸给鱼鱼讲小时候经常挨饿的事。
听完后，鱼鱼两眼含泪，十分同情地问： ' 哦，爸爸，你是因为没饭吃才来我们
家的吗？ '
（富含丰富同情心、不分情况物件的双鱼）

沙巴汉的心声

2008-12-22T13:26:00.001+08:00

我不会写作，我只是想用简单的词句表达出来，这些都是不争的事实。

很多西马人都会认为沙巴人很"大沙巴主义"；沙巴人亦对西马人很有偏见。我承认我是，也相信很多沙巴汉都一样。
虽然沙巴沦为全马来西亚最贫穷的州属不是西马人民的错（那是联邦政府的错），但是西马对人东马的不了解一样让我汗颜。
因为他们从来没有经历过东马人的生活是怎样水深火热法。
这就是同一个国家，却有两种不同的待遇。

我来到西马后就被西马人问我沙巴人是否住在树上，我妹妹还一度被怀疑是土族而不是华人。
我们不是生番，不打猎，不吃老虎，也没有和orang utan睡在同一张床。
西马人都不了解我到底是住在沙巴或者沙捞越。通常他们都会习惯性地叫 "SabahSarawak'，我也懒得解释。
Anyway我是绝对不会问你是否是"kedahkelantan" 或者 "melakasembilan' 或者 'penangperlis'...

我很努力想要介绍沙巴给西马的朋友认识，沙巴有住宅区，有market,有disco，有码头，有Giant。
可是又很矛盾的，因为虽然我是住在有瓦有墙的屋子里，但是这里没有水没有电，也没有一条稍微好一点的路。
我来到西马后曾经被housemate责骂我"为什么你小便后都不冲水？你这样很不卫生ehhhh"

我听了这句话愣了一下下，我只是撒了一泡尿，就要冲水？？
后来我才恍然大悟，原来西马每天24小时，每小时60分钟，每分钟60秒都有水源不停供应。
哼！真不好意思，我不小心把沙巴所养成的坏习惯给带来了，我家没有水！妈妈不给冲水！
一个星期只来两天的水，分别在星期一和星期四，这就是我hometown Sandakan所实行的policy!
尤其是我家在高山，只能分得两天的自来水供应。在较低的市区或许会有三天到四天的水源供应。
我家的厕所应该是最臭的吧，马桶里的尿几乎要泡成甘蔗水了才舍得flush一下。不然储蓄的水用完了，你就没有水冲凉。
你要冲凉还是flush你那泡尿？自己选。那些有养成一天冲2次凉+天天洗头的朋友们，真是抱歉了。我们只能在星期一和星期四才能洗头。

讲到电源供应，我hometown平均一个月有72小时是停电的，最高纪录试过连续一个星期每天停电8个小时。
不停电就不是我hometown,这是每个沙巴汉都会说的。
吉隆坡停电半个小时就会上报纸，沙巴停电好几个小时导致交通灯失灵，交通瘫痪却无人问津！
我记得我第一次带西马朋友来沙巴的第一天，家里就停电了，刚好是晚上，大伙儿会到屋外去晒月亮，看星星。
如果我说，在我家，你一伸手就可以摸到月亮，月亮亮得可以把你照出影子，还可以让你辨别各个星座，你一定要相信。
（因为我hometown的空气实在是太好了）

Anyway，关于停电停水的事，我在沙巴生活了二十多年，什么都习惯了，反而因为长期的压逼而麻木了，变得不会反抗。
沙巴人就是那么单纯，逆来顺受。
所以政府老是欺负沙巴，拿走沙巴资源去发展吉隆坡，卖了沙巴的木桐去西马起高楼，抽干沙巴的油田为西马做南北大道，
用沙巴的orang utan换了中国的熊猫却把熊猫放在西马。
这样有本事捐钱救助四川却没办法做条好一点的马路给沙巴，45年来都是一样。
沙巴的第一条fly over也是近年来才完成的，开心死沙巴汉。

国家抛弃沙巴，让沙巴自生自灭，每次都说要解决非法移民的问题，结果不了了之。
沙巴的非法移民还比本地人要多，全部来自Filipine,去年提到Filipine要拿回沙巴，
如果是通过投票决定，凭着寄居在沙巴庞大的Filipine人数，沙巴肯定完蛋，就这样轻易拱手让人了。

沙巴没水没电不说，就连就业机会也少之又少，结果年轻人都外流，全部跑来西马找吃。
你知道吗？一瓶yogurt在西马卖RM3.70，在沙巴却卖RM5.70,所有杂志书刊一律比西马贵。
因为货品从西马运过来都要贵算运送费，赚到的钱又要被抽去发展吉隆坡，加上本地人又要拼命找吃，所以物价越调越高。
可是这里还有人拿月薪RM200的人，还惨过在西马洗厕所。

每次回去沙巴，除了中学生以外都很少见到年轻人。沙巴什么都没有，年轻人留在沙巴也帮不了沙巴。
去年有几位同乡朋友坚持毕业后要留在沙巴，当时我还说他们笨，有KL这么好的地方，为什么要留在沙巴。
朋友说"没有人愿意留在沙巴，沙巴永远站不起来"，他点醒了我，但很无奈的，沙巴真的没有工作给我，我不得不留在西马工作。
上个月，我的堂弟辞职回沙巴了，我好奇地问，沙巴人工那么低，你这样回去就很不划算了。
堂弟说："西马始终不是家，我怎样都会回来这里，沙巴一定会有公司需要我"
我听了很惭愧，因为我本是打算在此落地生根的。但现在我真的醒悟了，就算我人在西马，一样要为沙巴打气。
沙巴这么美丽的一片净土，好好发展的话肯定是全马数一数二的！可是却这样被糟蹋！
这就是为什么除了沙巴汉以外的人，凡是进入沙巴的都必须做登记，Kastam会给你一张纸条，示意你在30天以内一定要离开沙巴。
沙巴不保护自己，情形会变得更惨不忍睹。

从以前到现在，沙巴对西马人来说，是那么的神秘而遥远。
没有人肯到沙巴来，仿佛这里都是野蛮人生存的不文明世界，NS被派来沙巴的都哭得要生要死，好像要把他们打入地域的样子。
沙巴是天堂还是地狱，你来看过才知道，至今只有西方的旅人才愿意来这曾经比吉隆坡还要繁荣的土地，探索它的回忆。
西马有三大民族，但沙巴有32个民族，西马的朋友应该都不懂。
东马是全马来西亚民族最和谐的地方，西马朋友应该也不懂。
在沙巴，回教徒甚至可以到卖叉烧的店来做棒餐，棒餐就棒餐，绝不会叫你摸叉烧。
回教徒也可以到华人海鲜店吃海鲜，卖海鲜就卖海鲜，绝不会突然跑出一块猪腩肉。
大家互相信任，也不需要避忌。但在西马应该没办法看见这种画面吧。

近年来Giant跑来沙巴了，巫统想要把西马的超市打入沙巴，再趁机控制沙巴的经济，很可惜受到沙巴汉的排斥。
沙巴有自己的报纸，有自己的超市，不需要假好心进来沙巴盗取沙巴的油脂再换取西马的利益！
国家抛弃沙巴，连9月16号沙砂加入马来亚成为马里西亚这么重大的日子都没有庆祝过！
....吃饱没事做的时候就炫耀说雄威的神山是马来西亚的骄傲...
神山是沙巴汉的骄傲，世界上最大的花朵莱佛西亚花也是沙巴汉的骄傲，濒临绝种的人猿亦是沙巴汉的骄傲，
唯独是没有为马来西亚感到骄傲。

我身为沙巴汉，衷心祈求916过可以让沙巴的同胞们过回一些好日子。
希望往后的916能够列为全国性的公共假期！联邦政府，请公平对待沙巴！
加油吧沙巴！我要见证你的发展！

u think i wrote this? sorry...nope...this is an article i copied n paste from an email...it is so true my frens...we must love our SABAH more~~im proud to be Sabahan!!

kk trip

2008-12-11T11:40:00.002+08:00

went to kk with frens during this long long holi...jus for few days, but maybe coz of d Haji holi, i met a lot of sandakanian in kk...made me feel like...am i at kk o sdk? hahahaha....its real man, reli made me blur blur dy...

as usual, went to kk, sure wanna go shopping la, n this time, haizzz....as usual, used a lot of money on buying this n tat, plus eat this n tat...kk reli is a shopping heaven, thou compare to kl, kk will lose la, but since i cant go to kl this yr, so kk is my 2nd choice n this choice oso not bad la...kinda love 1-borneo dy...its feel jus like in midvally, those brands that i love are there waiting for me to go in n have a look, hahaa, normally when go in a shop, must have a plastic bag come out with me..haiz...this is me...cmy~~

this trip to kk, reli bought a lot of unexpected things...last Raya when i went to kk, i wish so much to buy a Nike shoes...walked in so many shops n tried so many pairs of nike but none of them is suited for me...n this time, God reli has joke with me, when i din plan to buy any shoes, but i met with a pair of nike which reli so nice n i like the pattern as wel...so...without hesitate, its in my house now..hahahaa...

reli feel so relax while in kk these few days..feel so nice n relax n happy n everything la..wish can go ter again soon lor..

女生看了会哭泣，男生看了会沉默的故事!!

2008-12-02T20:32:00.001+08:00

那么一对情侣.女孩很漂亮,非常善解人意,偶尔时不时出些坏点子耍耍男孩. 男孩很聪明,也很懂事,最主要的一点.幽默感很强. 总能在2个人相处中找到可以逗女孩发笑的方式. 女孩很喜欢男孩这种乐天派的心情. 他们一直相处不错,女孩对男孩的感觉,淡淡的,说男孩象自己的亲人. 男孩对女孩爱甚深,非常非常在乎她.所以每当吵架的时候,男孩都会说是自己不好,自己的错. 即使有时候真的不怪他的时候,他也这么说.他不想让女孩生气.
就这样过5年,男孩仍然非常爱女孩,象当初一样.
有一个周末,女孩出门办事,男孩本来打算去找女孩,但是一听说她有事,就打消了这个念头. 他在家里呆了一天,他没有联系女孩,他觉得女孩一直在忙,自己不好去打扰他. 谁知女孩在忙的时候,还想着男孩,可是一天没有接到男孩的消息,她很生气. 晚上回家后,发了条信息给男孩,话说得很重.甚至提到了分手.当时是晚上12点. 男孩心急如焚,打女孩手机,连续打了3次,都给挂断了.打家里电话没人接,猜想是女孩把电话线拔了. 男孩抓起衣服就出门了,他要去女孩家.当时是12点25. 女孩在12点40的时候又接到了男孩的电话,从手机打来的,她又给挂断了.一夜无话.男孩没有再给女孩打电话.
第2天,女孩接到男孩母亲的电话,电话那边声泪俱下.
男孩昨晚出了车祸.警方说是车速过快导致刹车不急,撞到了一辆坏在半路的大货车. 救护车到的时候,人已经不行了. 女孩心痛到哭不出来,可是再后悔也没有用了. 她只能从点滴的回忆中来怀念男孩带给她的欢乐和幸福.
女孩强忍悲痛来到了事故车停车场,她想看看男孩呆过的最后的地方. 车已经撞得完全不成样子. 方向盘上,仪表盘上,还沾有男孩的血迹.
男孩的母亲把男孩当时身上的遗物给了女孩,钱包,手表,还有那部沾满了男孩鲜血的手机. 女孩翻开钱包,里面有她的照片,血渍浸透了大半张.
当女孩拿起男孩的手表的时候,赫然发现,手表的指针停在12点35分附近.女孩瞬间明白了,男孩在出事后还用最后一丝力气给她打电话,而她自己却因为还在堵气没有接.男孩再也没有力气去拨第2遍电话了,他带着对女孩的无限眷恋和内疚走了.
女孩永远不知道,男孩想和她说的最后一句话是什么. 女孩也明白,不会再有人会比这个男孩,更爱她了！

笑一笑

2008-12-01T14:35:00.002+08:00

某太太在生了女孩後，不停地求註生娘娘，希望下一胎是男孩，結果她下一仍是女孩。

這太太不死心，仍繼續去祈求下一胎生男孩，結果仍然生了女孩。

這太太仍不絕望，仍然繼續去求，結果下一胎仍然是．．．

最後這太太受不了了：「我決定了．．． , 我要換一間廟！」

結果這次她終於如願生了男孩。

她的親朋好友問她：「到底是哪間的註生娘娘廟那麼靈讓您生了男孩？」

.................

.............

......

答：「誰說我這次拜的是註生娘娘.？我這次拜的是包公！」

我多么羡慕你

2008-12-01T14:23:00.003+08:00

昨天,觀看星光2的時候,發現了這首歌曲,很好聽,讓我不能忘記,所以在這裡向大家介紹江美琪的 <<我多么羡慕你>>.是一首比較久的歌曲,但真的很好聽.

江美琪-我多么羡慕你
曲 : 张洪量词 : 姚谦

有时候风太急
禁不住挂念起你
这一刻离我遥远飞行
有时候夜太静
拦不住回忆的心
于是泪
每个夜里如繁星

我多么羡慕你
总可以转身飞远远的
我的爱是你沉重行李
绊住你追新梦的决心
我多么想念你
当时间都失去了意义
穿越思念后等成信箱让你需要的时候可以投递
告诉我沿途中想与我分享的心情

All Rights Reserved

2008-11-26T14:41:00.004+08:00

i bought a bag from Kuching on 2007, when i traveled there after finished my practical at KL with coursemates...i din reli buy much ter, jus some sweets n pepper for mum lor...then i bot this bag for myself, guess how much it cost? is RM 10.00. cheap? ok la, coz it is not so big, cant fit in many things, after put in my wallet, dy almost fully occupied dy...then, 1 nite, while im waiting for Kian come to fetch me out gai gai, i saw my cute cute toy on my table, then my bag beside it too...suddenly...'ding' a bulb light up~~so i get my needle n breads....i made this for myself...wholly all rights reserved, it d 1 n only 1 in this world...pretty? not bad lor...

before

after

black coffee? white coffee?

2008-11-26T14:27:00.003+08:00

dat day went to gai gai at Giant with Kian..then v saw 1 thing very funny, n v wonder..is it a black coffee o white coffee? its written Malaysian Black Coffee Cookies..but in Mandarin, its written白咖啡餅, so what is it actually? im reli garu my head...hahhahaa....

image not reli clear, coz it was reli many ppl around, i so paiseh la, i wanna take d pic, but scare ppl will think im crazy...c...what should it be? black coffee or white coffee?

女性健康实用宝典~

2008-11-25T15:30:00.004+08:00

i copied these articles from a fren, hope u don mind ya~~

橙色题板
1、多享受早晨8－9点的阳光
2、跑步、骑脚踏车等运动可以保持优美的腿部线条
3、热水泡脚可有效预防静脉曲张
4、精神极度疲倦时并不适宜以运动减压，休息更重要
5、冬季少做户外运动
6、十层以下，不乘坐电梯
7、每三个月改变一次你的健身菜单
8、每天运动半小时，而非周末运动三小时
9、运动前先卸妆
10、边看电视边做柔软体操
11、在游泳池里一定要戴上泳帽和泳镜
12、经常散步
13、午休也是健身的好时间，不一定非等到晚上
14、光脚穿运动鞋固然舒服，却对健康不利
15、睡半硬的床铺更有利于颈椎健康
16、去正规的医院而非美容院接受按摩
17、非运动状态下不喝功能性饮料
18、运动后休息半小时再入浴
19、不在过吵的健身房中锻炼
20、正确的姿势比专程去健身更有效

黄色题板
1、在牛奶和豆浆之间，选择后者
2、觉得还可以再吃半碗饭时，离开餐桌
3、如果身体不感到饥渴，每天只需饮用四杯水
4、多喝酸奶
5、无论什么原因，都别抽烟
6、在食谱里添加杂粮和蔬菜
7、饮绿茶胜过红茶
8、重视早餐多过晚餐
9、控制盐的用量
10、起床后先刷牙，再喝水
11、经常嚼口香糖
12、一早一晚，两个苹果可以有效改善便秘
13、纯素食可能导致荷尔蒙分泌异常，造成不孕
14、每周至少吃一次鱼
15、远离可乐等碳酸饮料
16、不喝久煮的火锅汤
17、没有果汁牛奶这回事，它们是天生的冤家
18、饭前吃水果胜过饭后
19、睡前可以来一杯红葡萄酒
20、喝咖啡可能引起女性骨质疏松

绿色题板
1、浴室保持干燥，防止霉菌滋生
2、沐浴不超过10分钟
3、不要坐在马桶上看报纸
4、用温水刷牙，同时刷刷舌头
5、用冷热水交替洗脸
6、不用塑料器皿盛装热水
7、定期清理冰箱
8、微波炉在工作时，请离开厨房
9、使用抽油烟机
10、晚餐时关掉电视机
11、尽量避免使用厚绒布窗帘
12、杀虫剂和清洁剂要放在远离起居场所的储物间
13、用天然的花香或果香代替芳香剂
14、和宠物嬉戏完要认真洗手
15、冬天居室里的加湿器使用纯净水
16、不要贪图方便将电脑带进卧室
17、不要把手机放在枕边充当闹钟
18、别在临睡前服药，安眠药也要提前半小时服用
19、头发没干时，别急着入睡
20、卧室的房间要用柔和色彩

蓝色题板
1、每天踏进办公室，先将窗户打开透气，再坐下来工作
2、如果一天要接听5 小时电话，使用无线耳机
3、复印文件时，与复印机保持至少一米
4、只在非常必要时才使用滴眼液
5、不趴在办公桌上午睡
6、该午休的时候不玩电脑游戏
7、在办公室为自己准备小靠垫，放在腰部
8、从不戴着眼镜接听手机
9、别让电脑包围你，它的侧、背面辐射更凶
10、不要将笔记本电脑放在膝上使用
11、在办公桌上养一盆仙人掌，帮助吸收辐射
12、阅读完报纸后，记得清洗掉沾在手上的油墨
13、每30分钟伸一次懒腰
14、办公室地毯定期清洗杀虫
15、用完电脑后要清洁面部及手部，清除辐射微尘
16、下班时将洗净的水杯倒扣在办公桌上
17、单肩的短带挎包会加重肩周炎症状
18、公文包时的口红与签字笔分格存放
19、每天保证有2 小时以上的时间，让脚从高跟鞋时解放出来
20、每周晚过22:00 的加班不超过一次

粉色题板
1、在干净的床上裸睡
2、生理期不吃巧克力，因为会加重痛经
3、经期只穿无钢圈内衣
4、养成记录生理周期的习惯
5、通过运动而非调整型内衣来塑造曲线
6、不翘二郎腿，以免压迫神经
7、ML后去一次洗手间
8、贴身衣物要干洗
9、拉风的丁字裤不适宜日常穿着
10、不穿标有'免烫'标识的衣服
11、丝巾扎得过紧会导致头晕
12、如非必要，不使用卫生护垫
13、定期检查化妆品的保质期
14、洗浴后一小时再化妆
15、每周只用一次清洗液，用温水清洁私密部位
16、即使爱美，也不要在耳朵上部的外缘软骨部位穿耳洞
17、染发频率控制在半年一次
18、了解自己的家庭病史，特别是母亲和外婆的病史

心理測驗

2008-11-23T20:04:00.002+08:00

心理測驗題目：什麼原因會讓你想哭?
排一下自己最易哭的原因! (1是最容易 , 5是最不容易) 五個選項分別是：
a.感動
b.傷心
c.痛( 是肉體, 不是心靈)
d.生氣
e.擔心/緊張
排好了嗎？準備看答案囉！請看自己把該選項排在第幾個順位來找解答喔∼

a) 感動：不是跟你很熟的人覺得你是 ......
排在第1 - 一個常常把自己藏起來的人。很有神秘感。不容易接近。
排在第2 - 一個很會關心別人的人。很容易發現身邊有人不開心。不會很容易講錯東西或話題。排在第3 - 一個傻傻的人。怪怪的。想做什麼就做什麼。不過很可愛。
排在第4 - 一個不會想﹐老是要人擔心的人。(特別是長輩)
排在第5 - 一個很聰明﹐很負責任的領導人。對你很尊敬。

b)傷心：跟你很熟的人覺得你是 ......
排在第1 - 對很多事都要求很高的人。不過有很多時候都太固執。
排在第2 - 可以跟你講道理。黑白之間分辨得很清楚。
排在第3 - 心思很細膩的人。很多時候傷心不會表現出來，不過其實大家都看得出來。
排在第4 - 會先想很多才會做選擇。不想自己給人看扁,自尊可以算是很強的人。
排在第5 - 外剛內柔的人。但其實知道你的內心不是那麼堅強。

c)痛：你想要別人覺得你是 ......
排在第1 - 很需要別人保護的人。
排在第2 - 不是那麼容易接近的人。
排在第3 - 好人一個。很關心身邊的人。不怕做犧牲的人。
排在第4 - 很聰明 , 不過又不會驕傲的人。
排在第5 - 很清楚自己想什麼要什麼的人。

d)生氣：你最希望你的情人是......
排在第1 - 跟你很合拍。你跟他想的東西是一樣 ,不用問便知道對方要什麼。
排在第2 -不會很客易發脾氣。要懂得容忍你。外剛內柔。有自己的性格。
排在第3 - 內心是很可愛的一個人。你猜不到下一步他會做什麼。
排在第4 -很細心。你需要什麼他都有準備。不會因為很少的東西便找你。
排在第5 - 智慧很重要。可以管得到你的人。而且要講道理。

e)擔心 /緊張：其實真實的你是 ......
排在第1 - 一個很怕給別人看到自己是什麼樣的人。不喜歡自己性格的人。
排在第2 -孤獨的人。很希望可以跟一大堆人在一起。不過很多時候都不知道怎樣跟別人溝通。
排在第3 -覺得朋友比天還重要的人。很珍惜身邊很多朋友。敢愛敢恨。不過不喜歡的人你就不會去管..
排在第4 -直接的人。很多時候因為這樣的性格跟別人不合。希望有多一點人可以了解你, 特別是你喜歡的人。
排在第5 -不是很清楚自己將來要什麼。不過就很幸運的走過半生。不會對很多東西有要求。最重要是可以開心過每一天!

神木與瞳

2008-11-18T20:45:00.005+08:00

coincidently, changing channel jus now, found out this band...from 星光2---神木與瞳.their songs not bad oh...so intro u this one 1st...

<<为你而活>>
看生命像阵风包不住的痛所以紧握双手
抬起头那流星般的笑容只不过坠落在心中
天空会裂缝我肩头添上的爱那久就不怕滂沱
用眼泪庆贺跨过了坚信这一扇门后真的有天国
为了你而活为了你而梦为了爱我会撑到最后当世界都乌有守著你的人是我
为了你而活为了你而梦伤痕再深心无法划破跟命运在逆流就算错了也不退后
不闪躲在这荆棘遍布中那伤口会开出花朵
天空会裂缝我肩头添上的爱那重就不怕滂沱
用眼泪庆贺跨过了坚信这一扇门后真的有天国
为了你而活为了你而梦为了爱我会撑到最后当世界都乌有守著你的人是我
为了你而活为了你而梦伤痕再深心无法划破跟命运在逆流就算错了也不退后
为了你而活为了你而梦为了爱我会撑到最后当世界都乌有守著你的人是我
为了你而活为了你而梦伤痕再深心无法划破跟命运在逆流就算错了也不退后

still another sleeping day

2008-11-18T19:50:00.005+08:00

so sien oh, today oso is another sleeping day for me, sleep till almost 5 only wake up...but today better la, morning go clean up my room, thou din throw away a lot, but look nicer now, coz i rearrange the tables n cupboard, so now look ok a bit, but, belif me, in 1 week time, sure will back to normal again...1 word---mess~~i oso don wish to be like tat, but i reli have a lot of books la,plus i m a girl ma, sure a lot of things la..so its quite hard for me to keep my room look clean..actually is an excuse la, if i wan to, sure i can, rite? so i will try my best la...
no out today, so sien, whole day at home only..is it holidays must be like this? or im d one din take any initiative to go travel? cant go so far la, coz no money la..too many commitment dy.. why i cant earn more? so that i can buy a lot of my favourite things..but, life is reli won be perfect la...should appreciate wat i have now, coz im so fortunate n lucky dy..知足常樂吧!
wish to buy myself a gift soon, but wat should i buy? perfume? cosmetic? jewelry? i have no idea..any idea? maybe i need a good book...to kill the time, hahaha....

1st day of holi=sleeping day

2008-11-17T19:36:00.003+08:00

today is consider 1st day of the long long holi, n it became d sleeping day for me...hahaaa
1st monday no need wake up by d alarm, but din reli sleep till very late, b4 9am i dy wake up n take my lovely breakfast, oh ya, finally no need eat porridge dy, but i still no dare to eat oily food, so just eat little meehun then make a cup of milo kosong kao+nestum for myself, then sit down to watch tv...yeah yeah...wat an enjoyable morning. then mum came back from pizza...opss....i cant stand d nice odour...so i curi-curi eat 1 slice dy, thou mum said"don eat la,so oily,later wanna go toilet again"..but i reli cant tahan anymore la..so i just eat...luckily nothing bad happen, if not, reli dai sei lor..
then noon time...is sleeping time...sleep for d whole noon till 4pm...then..hai...have a phone fight with him...y everytime oso like tat? luckily now ok dy la, but reli feel so sien dy la...macam not stable..but sometimes ok oso...hai...
i wan eat eat eat..wanna eat nice nice food..coz i been starving for days dy..hahahaa....frens, fast fast date me out to spend me makan la, wat u waiting for? call me now~~

finally recover

2008-11-16T19:40:00.002+08:00

i been suffering from diarrhea for 3 days...wat a kasian 3 days for me, went to toilet for dunno how many tens time dy...till reli wish to sleep in toilet only, heehe...kidding la...finally, after an injection from Dr. Peter Chin...i finally stop from going to toilet lo, yeah yeah~~ his medication reli works la..better than wat Dr. Raja gave me, so next time, when im sick, i won back to consult Dr. Raja lor...hehehe...bad me...Thanks to Dr. Peter Chin...
been eating only porridge for 3 days dy..i miss all those delicios food la, i wan eat kon lou min, i wanna drink nescafe, i wan to eat pizza...etc. these few days reli cham, only watching ppl eat those nice food, but myself only can eat porridge, jus plain porridge, wat appetite oso gone la...luckily tonite is d last porridge for me dy, start tml, i can eat normally lor, but i will be careful lor, not to eat too much 1st, scare my intestine not biasa...n wat did i gain from this diarrhea? hahaha, i lost 1 kg...muaahahaha...but, 3 days only lost 1 kg, hai...kesian oso...

sick plus diarrhea...a reli hard day for me

2008-11-14T19:26:00.002+08:00

last nite, finally went to c doc, not becoz of my sick make me cant tahan, but my stomachache...since last noon around 5 something after i woke up, i been going to toilet for more than 30 times now...ya, im telling d truth not exaggerate...its real, if not believe, call my mum n ask la...wat happen? food poisoning la, wat else again? my 'cheong wai' not good mah, but this time reli seems so serious oh, coz i dy consuming d medi to tahan cirit birit n cuci usus, but it hasnt stop cirit birit at all oh, i still going to toilet on n off..cham, till my 'pigu' cant tahan soon lor...i wonder wat did i eat till this time diarrhea so serious, kian n i think dat on wed noon, we went to kong ming eat cha siew itik fan, i think is becoz of tat lo, coz d itik macam not 'xin xian' la...but if reli not xin xian, y kian nothing one ah? he n i eat d same thing eh...hai...so unfair oh~~

if not yest i haven print out d report card, i think today i won go to school lor, so cham, have to tahan at school till 11.20 then only can leave, then went to toilet o oso...so paiseh...

finally...school holidays lo....but, happy wat la, oso jus stay at home, a lot of things haven finish le, kad 001M haven fill in eh..hai..Ganbade la~~

yeah

2008-10-29T17:09:00.000+08:00

yeah~~tml start exam lo, means...holiday is coming soon lor..yeah yeah~~

说好的幸福呢

2008-10-27T18:57:00.004+08:00

<<说好的幸福呢>>

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择你
冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢
你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

周杰伦--魔杰座

2008-10-25T14:38:00.004+08:00

我的爱人周董又出新专辑了--魔杰座！超好听的一个专辑，大家应该去听一听。并不是因为我爱周董所以才说他的新歌好听，它们真的很好听，尤其是他的最后首个，稻香，我真的爱上了这首歌曲了，我一直重复有重复的听这首歌曲都不会觉得烦闷，只会觉得他真的是一个天才，只有才可以写出这么好听的歌曲！在此为大家介绍这首歌曲！它的歌词竟然是这么的有意义~~

<<稻香>>
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨跌倒了
就不敢继续往前走为什么人要这么的脆弱
堕落
请你打开电视看看多少人
为生命在努力勇敢的走下去我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随着稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧回到最初的美好
不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了为自己的人生鲜艳上色先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里
所谓的那快乐赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
哦哦~午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆哦~阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎哦珍惜一切就算没有拥有
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随着稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧回到最初的美好
还记得你说家是唯一的城堡随着稻香河流继续奔跑微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带著你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠回家吧回到最初的美好

Tension

2008-10-23T21:41:00.003+08:00

The Moment you are in Tension
You will lose your Attention
Then you are in total Confusion
And you will feel Irritation
Then you will spoil personal Relation
Ultimately, you won't get Co - Operation
Then you will make things full of Complication
Then your blood pressure may raise Caution
And you may have to take Medication
Instead, try to understand the Situation
And try to think of a Solution
Many problems will be solved by Discussion
This will work out better for your Profession
Don't think it's my free Suggestion
It's only for your Prevention
If you understand my Intention
You will never come again to Tension

成熟的爱情

2008-10-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

成熟的爱情...

有一位心理学家曾写过，一个成熟称得上真爱的恋情必须经过四个阶段，那就是：
- 共存(Codependent)
- 反依赖(Counterdependent)
- 独立(Independent)
- 共生(Interdependent)

第一个阶段：共存
这是热恋期间，情人不论何时何地总希望能黏在一起。

第二个阶段：反依赖
等到情感稳定后，至少会有一方想要有多一点自己的时间做自己想做的事，这时另一方就会感到被冷落。

第三个阶段：独立
这是第二个阶段的延续，要求更多独立自主的时间。

第四个阶段：共生
这时新的相处之道已经成形，你的他/她已经成为你最亲的人。你们在一起相互扶持，一起开创属于你们自己的人生。你们在一起不会互相牵绊，而会互相成长。

但是，大部分的人都通过不了第二和第三阶段，而选择分手，这是非常可惜的。

很多事只要好好沟通都会没事的，不要耍个性，不要想太多，要互相信任，这样，第二和第三阶段的时间就会缩短。

和所爱的人相遇相恋是非常不容易的，不要轻言放弃。

两人相聚是因为有缘，相知是因为有心，真的得好好珍惜这福分。希望能给大家一些启示和领悟，并惜缘。

我们会渐渐变成我们所爱的人。你和他本来没有相同之处，外表不相像，性格也南辕北撤,一旦爱上了，年深日久，你会惊讶你的眼睛有点像他的眼睛，他的微笑也有点像你的微笑。你们走路的步伐也有点相似，说话的语气也越来越相像。原来我们会变成我们所爱的人。

你本来喜欢脚踏实地的人，而他一向比较轻佻，但你们爱上了，他竟会不知不觉变成一个老实人，这个改变，连他自己也不曾察觉。他本来喜欢活泼的女孩，却爱上拘谨的你，这些日子，你竟会越来越活泼，你差点认不出自己。我们会逐渐变成对方理想中的人，这种改变绝对不是刻意的。两个人越爱得长久，气质也越来越相近。
你曾经以为他不是你梦寐以求的那种类型，然而，有一天，你会惊讶的发现，他已经变成你喜欢的那种类型，你不必再到处寻觅，他就是你要找的人。深深爱着一个人的时候，你原来真的会一点一点的失去自己，为什么你还会觉得快乐呢？大概是因为你在失去的时候，你把他的气质和微笑都赚回来了。

幸福很单纯，所以要很单纯的人才容易获得。

真爱就是不轻言放弃。

feel down in working

2008-09-05T14:03:00.003+08:00

its been a long time since my last blog here....coz i have no time to online for a such a long time, life is not so bz here, but yet not enuf time for me to use lor...hope everyday got 36 hours to use then i think it will be better~~

getting so sad in working again, a fren told me jus now while having lunch together...teachers in school again complain my style in teahing again....so sad...reli WTF! feel so sad after listening to him telling me the truth, but i cant show them how i feel, coz there is someone ter with us...is my teaching style reli got problem? its almost end of the yr dy..all syllabus already done, so i have nothing to do with them more but jus exercises n exercises again n again every lessons....so they will feel bored, as well as me too...so sometimes i jus let them relax a bit...then, sure they will get a bit noisy, but i don think it is so over, but why they keep on complaining on me? am i only d 1 cannot control them? no...i don think so...when i was in other class...i oso saw them walking here n ter...n with their bags also sometimes, then why u don go n complain d others? jus bcoz u don c it then u only can judge on me? im not d only one cant control...do u think they reli easy to control? if u think so...jus come in n have a try...its my pleasure to lend u a lesson...

feeling down not only listen to wat they said bout me...feeling down coz u not understand me as well...how long have u been knowing me? don u know my style when i m down? then y u still talk like tat to me n don console me? feeling so dump in front of u, jus like i reli dunno how to control my EQ...i do know how to express my feeling...n my way of doing it i feel so comfortable with, then why to u...im useless? when im down, i reli cant feel ur caring on me...i cant even have a conversation with u...coz u r bz working..ya...im so free no need work n only know to think this n tat....pls....be fair...

feel so 'hak jai' recently...n im having my interview next thursday...is it the sign for me that im going to have a bad interview? i hope not....i reli hope i can pass...my life is full of so much miserables now...im somewhere....somehow...LOST~~

feel stress in working again

2008-06-19T19:30:00.002+08:00

today..heard bout many rumors at school, made me feel down at school all day, plus din sleep well last nite, made my day more miserable...
day by day, feel tat teaching is reali not tat suitable for me...but in some other ways...i love teaching as well...so, it makes me feel so 'mao dun'...i felt dat i reli not so good in controling students, i not fierce, i don like to scold students, maybe bcoz of this, they don reli sacre of me...ppl will say dat i should be more firm n scold students whenever it is needed..but i reli don like to do it, i don feel dat scolding them will make things better, n yet it jus will ruin the relationship n make them don like to listen to my teaching...but not scolding them, sometimes they will tend to ignoring me...this is d thing that make me so sad recently...
i like my sons n daughters...i mean d class i handling...but, bcoz of my mercy, they start making so much noises whenever i enter their class...until today..i reali cant take it anymore, then i did something stupid n something dat i shouldnt do in front of them...feel so dump...n make me feel reli disappointed with them...i treated them so well but in d end...wat i deserve? maybe i shouldnt say like this, coz they r jus little children...13 n 14 yrs old only, but...it reali make me feel so sad...is it i treated them too well dy? should i change? yes...i think i should change...
things reli din go well with me recently...maybe i need another change? i need fresh air~~

纯纯的恋爱

2008-06-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

以前。。。

因为暗恋，而看爱情小说

因为暗恋，而拼命写情书

因为暗恋，而学说更多好话

因为暗恋对方所以想靠近对方

暗恋一个人真的可以什么都不计较

可以为他抄功课

可以当他的司机

为他折一千颗幸运星

代价就为了和对方去看一场电影

用打电话的方式向对方表白

用写信的方式向对方表白

用表白的方式向对方示爱

虽然失败但也是勇者

恋爱时，非常会幻想

幻想一起走沙滩，一起步入教堂

想着他时总是，好像变成天使不停飞

课本里的文字变成了他/她的名字

每个女生/男生的背影好像都是他

喜欢一个人，

会在房间贴满了她的照片

在书里放满他的照片

脑海里充满他的影像

想着对方，想到不舍得睡觉

梦里总是有他的出现

常常为了见她一面，常跑去厕所

因为他的课室在厕所旁边

常常为了见她一面，跑去和对方做同一辆巴士

常常为了见她一面，跑到他家附近兜

上课时常常望着他

看到他和异性谈话，就会有无名的醋味

热切的想谈恋爱

一天到晚看爱情小说

一天到晚听情歌

一天到晚沉迷在爱的海里

最后什么都可以忽略

常常为了成为对方理想的恋人

最后都迷失了自己

总相信着

爱情不分年龄的

爱情是不分种族的

爱情是不分国际的

爱情是不分男女的

恋爱后总希望能与对方天长地久

24小时都希望能与他一起度过

每天都包电话粥

想更了解他/她

为他付出是件幸福的事

男友/女友就变成了所有一切

但都忘了现实的世界

恋爱的付出可不简单

很多人已忘了恋爱的意义

希望这简单的文章能让一些人回味

回味那纯纯的恋爱感

希望有情人终成眷属

hari ini dalam sejarah

2008-06-13T19:27:00.003+08:00

yeah~~wat would be the story for today? u will never guess...yeah~~finally i went to curl my hair this noon after school time...act ive been thinking of it since monday, when i saw a colleague of mine went to curl her hair during the holiday...it is so pretty..so since then, i was thinking of perm my hair for days dy, then finally in this very historical moment..at 1.30pm, i reached saloon there, n i decided to perm my hair...hahahaa....yes~~MY finally change her out look dy..then the Q is...how i look like now? i wish can upload a photo now but im using my bro's com...so, fres..wait me ya..sure i will upload a pretty photo of mine asap...yupe, i like my new hair style pretty much..am i look old now? no la...a bit more mature la...hahahaa(trying my best to cheat myself now)~~~

送给你一个故事，希望它能为你带来好运

2008-05-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

从前, 有一个脾气很坏的男孩，他的爸爸给了他一袋钉子，告诉他每次发脾气或者跟人吵架的时候就在院子的篱笆上钉一根。第一天，男孩钉了37 根钉子。后面的几天他学会了控制自己的脾气，每天钉的钉子也逐渐减少了。他发现，控制自己的脾气，实际上比钉钉子要容易的多。终于有一天，他一根钉子都没有钉，他高兴地把这件事告诉了爸爸。爸爸说：从今以后，如果你一天都没有发脾气，就可以在这天拔掉一根钉子。日子一天一天过去，最后，钉子全被拔光了。爸爸带他来到篱笆边上，对他说：儿子，你做得很好 , 可是看看篱笆上的钉子洞，这些洞永远也不可能恢复了。就象你和一个人吵架，说了些难听的话，你就在他心里留下了一个伤口，像这个钉子洞一样。插一把刀子在一个人的身体里，再拔出来，伤口就难以愈合了。无论你怎么道歉，伤口总是在那儿。要知道，身体上的伤口和心灵上的伤口一样都难以恢复。
你的朋友是你宝贵的财产，他们让你开怀，让你更勇敢。他们总是随时倾听你的忧伤。你需要他们的时候，他们会支持你，向你敞开心扉。告诉你的朋友你多么爱他们，告诉所有你认为是朋友的人，你的行动可以从邮寄这个小小的故事开始。有一天，当这封信回到你的信箱里时。你会发现你有一个很大的朋友圈。最后，我要说：友谊的幸福之一，是知道了可以向谁倾吐秘密。如果你收到了这封信，是因为有人在默默地祝福你，因为你也爱你身边的一些人。如果你总说太忙，不能将这封信转寄出去，老是说：'改天再寄。'你将永远都不会去做这件事的。所以，不要找借口，静心的看看这片古老印度来的故事，然后决定为你的朋友们作一些事，从传寄这封信开始。当你说：'你是我的好朋友'时，请认真地说出来。当你道歉时请看着对方的眼睛。永远不要嘲笑别人的梦想。不要随便给一个人定性。说话时要慢，思想时要快。打电话的时候请你微笑，对方一定感觉得到。

仇人與恩人

2008-05-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

大學剛畢業的時候，某電視公司請我去主持個特別節目，那節目的導播看我文章不錯，又要我兼編劇。可是當節目做完，領酬勞的時候，導播不但不給我編劇費，還扣我一半的主持費。
他把收據交給我說：『你簽收一千六，但我只能給你八百，因為節目透支了。』
我當時沒吭聲，照簽了，心想【君子報仇，十年不晚。】後來那導播又找我，我還【照樣】幫他做了幾次。
最後一次，他沒扣我錢，變得對我很客氣，因為那時我被電視公司的新聞部看上，一下子成為了電視記者兼新聞主播。
我們後來常在公司遇到，他每次笑得都有點尷尬。我曾經想去告他一狀，可是正如高中那位同學所說，沒有他我能有今天嗎？如果我當初不忍下一口氣，又能繼續獲得主持的機會嗎？機會是他給的，他是我的貴人，他已經知錯，我何必去報復呢？
後來我到了美國留學。
有一天，一位已經就業的同學對我抱怨他的美國老闆【吃】他，不但給他很少的薪水，而且故意拖延他的綠卡（美國居留權）申請。
我當時對他說：『這麼壞的老闆，不做也罷。但你豈能白幹了這麼久，總要多學一點，再跳槽，所以你要偷偷學。』
他聽了我的話，不但每天加班，留下來背那些商業文書的寫法。甚至連怎麼修理影印機，都跟在工人旁邊記筆記，以便有一天自己出去創業，能夠省點修理費。
隔了半年，我問他是不是打算跳槽了？他居然一笑：『不用！我的老闆現在對我刮目相看，又升官，又加薪，而且綠卡也馬上下來了，老闆還問我為什麼態度一百八十度轉變，變得那麼積極呢？』
他心裏的不平不見了，他作了『報復』，只是換了一種方法，而且他自我檢討，當年其實是他自己不努力。
大概前五年吧！我遇到個有意思的事。
一位老友突然猛學算命，由生辰八字、紫薇斗數、姓名學到占星術，沒一樣不研究。他學算命，當然不是覺得算命靈驗，而是想證明算命是騙人的東西。原因是有一位非常著名的大師為他算命，算他活不到四十七，他發誓，非打爛那大師的招牌不可。
你猜怎樣？他愈學愈怕，因為他發現自己算自己，也確實活不長。
這時候，他改了，他跑去做慈善，說：『反正活不久了，好好運用剩下的歲月，做點有意義的事。』他很積極地投入，人人都說他變了，由一個焦躁勢利的小人，變成敦厚慈愛的君子。
不知不覺，他過了四十七、過了四十八，而今已經五十三，紅光滿面、生氣勃勃，比誰都活利健康。
「你可以去砸那大師的招牌了！」我有一天開他玩笑。他眼一亮，回問我：『為什麼？』又笑笑：『要不是那人警告我，照我以前的個性，確實四十七歲非犯心臟病不可，他沒有不準啊！』
各位年輕朋友！
你喜歡逞強鬥狠嗎？你總是心有不平嗎？你有【此仇不報非君子】的憤恨嗎？
一點心得你要知道，【敵人、仇人】 … 都可以【激發】你的【潛能】，成為你的【貴人】。
你也要知道，許多怨仇、不平，其實問題都出在你自己。你更要知道，這世間最好的『報復』，就是運用那股不平之氣，使自己邁向成功，以那成功和【成功之後的胸懷】，對待你當年的敵人，且把敵人變成朋友。
當『冤冤相報何時了』的【雙贏】，能成為【相逢一笑泯恩仇】的【雙贏】。
不是人生最大的成功嗎？是不是：如果你是正確的，你的世界就是正確的？

mum not here...

2008-05-04T13:15:00.000+08:00

mum went to KK since 1st May...so miss her oh...coz no ppl cook for me to eat mah...wahahahaha....

sick

2008-05-02T23:50:00.001+08:00

labour day

2008-05-01T19:38:00.002+08:00

yeah~~ is holiday...since start working, i will oways look at d calendar n waiting for holidays...when there is no holi for d month...feel so down...coz i cant have even a single day off from those stress n tikam tikam n need to face those fake ppl n those ghosts....yes...they r no more monkeys to me...they r now upgrade dy, they became ghosts dy...hehehe...maybe even worse than ghost...coz they reli will do something tat hurt me so much...esp when they make me get caught by those ketua bidang, guru disiplin n d most is get caught by principle or PK1 o PK HEM....d most scary thing tat i hope never will happen to me...i don wan my record become so bad...i still haven become d goverment servant le...i haven pass my interview eh...they reli can 'fire' me if my record not good eh...reli hope this won happen to me...thou pass my interview i oso don wish this to happen...blesses on me~~
went to play bad again...reli feel so in love with badminton dy...hehehee...then...bought a new pair of badminton shoes this morning with Kian...which cost me RM 59.00...hai...kian cheated me...he said brought me to buy some cheap cheap around 30-40..but in d end made me bought such an expensive one...but...quite pretty la, i love it too..want to c it? come n play badminton with me la...ehhehee....
wish everyday will be a good day to me...Happy Labour Day~~muaksssssss

my love recently...

2008-04-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

hope every tomolo will be another good day

2008-04-24T20:27:00.004+08:00

today, reached school, face still black black, coz reli feel bored with my school dy...hai...pang tot i still keep those unhappy things in heart, act i ok a bit la...jus feel....how to say le? reli dunno wat word can describe my feeling...hope this feeling can go away soon..then make my fire in teaching come back again...blesses on me...

没有守护神在身边的一天

2008-04-23T14:33:00.004+08:00

今天真的好难过！工作上的事事非非真的让我感到失望及失去了当初的那份热情! 总以为这些事情的发生难以避免的，但它真真发生在自己身上的时候，那种感觉真的是难以形容。爱哭的我，眼泪无情的流了下来！不停的流，让我觉得做这分工作的意义到底是为了什么？为他们付出的，他们从没感激过；为他们所做的一切，他们觉得是理所当然的，一句‘谢谢’也没有；处罚他们，我是错的；放纵他们，他们说我管理不当，没纪律！那到底我所做的一切是为了什么呢？我开始犹豫了。是为了你们还是为了我自己？我不可以说我所做的一切都是对的，但每个人都有自己工作的一套，自己的想法，自己的处理方式，请别批评我！请别在我背后中伤我。我是一个有血有泪的身躯，不是你们那已无情冷酷的脸孔，别拿你的一套放在我身上，因为我并不认同！
并不喜欢自己的懦弱，不喜欢自己的爱哭，不喜欢自己的过份依靠在你身上，但我怕我没适时的发泄，我会崩溃！我不是很会宣发自己感觉感情的人，但我懂得什么时候该让自己放纵一下，不然我想我很快会法疯了！认识我的人，是否觉得我有点变了？我也觉得那开朗的敏仪好像开始躲起来了，而那忧郁的敏仪正一步一步浮现在大家面前了..........

a tiring working day

2008-04-22T19:49:00.002+08:00

getting tire n bored with my job recently...jus get into my teaching life for 3 months i dy feel tire n bored...how am i going to stand for another 30 yrs? i really cant imagine...
teaching reli not d things i think of on d beginning...its really need a lot of mental strength then only can stand all those stress n tikam sini tikam sana from behind...things are not as easy as u think...we are working from 6.30 until 3..then those paperworks..u cant imagine nowadays a teacher not only teaching...they are clerks, accountants, reporters, dicipliners....all those u can name it, then a teacher can become one of them...sucksss....i really getting frustrated with my job now...but i cant run away...help~~
after all those stress....he is giving me such a headache also...feel so down these few days, all my pimples come out to say hi to everyone dy..so shit...hate it...god, help me...im so stress~~

belif in miracle? i do...

2008-04-21T15:46:00.003+08:00

对不起,我爱你

2008-04-17T19:31:00.002+08:00

今天期中考，学校早一点放学，我打了通电话给他。　　：喂，我今天比较早放学，你来载我回家好不好？　　：好，等我五分钟。　　：五分钟？我学校就在你家旁边耶。　
　　　：我总要打扮一下啊。　　：好啦，快一点喔。　
　　　下午2：00，太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血，我站在树荫下挥动着手，虽然没凉到哪里去，但是煽总比不煽好。　
　　　五分钟过了，他还没来，我看看手表，有点不高兴，十分钟过了，他还没到..，该不会出了什么事吧？呸呸呸...乌鸦嘴，十五分钟过了，他总算到了。　
　　　：怎么这么慢？　　他一副无所谓的样子说：没啊，看个电视。　
　　　什么？看个电视？你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来？我没有说话，没有拿安全帽，没有上车的瞪着他。　　：对不起。　　
　　这是他第一次对我说对不起，他是一个很大男人主义，爱面子的男生，所以他从不像女生低头说对不起，我看着他，好吧，似乎面有惭色，我带上安全帽，让他载我回家。　　
　　他总是这样，从来不解释，不争论，不跟我吵架，只跟我说对不起，有些事，不是一句对不起就能解决的，但是他都跟我道歉了，我也就没再追究下去，他说，我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。　　
　　认错需要很大的勇气，但是他从来都没有改进他的错误，对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。在他说第59次对不起时，我流着泪，低下头说：你不要再跟我说对不起了，如果你无法改变，就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会，相信你会改变。他轻轻的拥着我，说了第60句对不起。　　
　　虽然如此，他还是没有改变，不做任何的解释，我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。　　：你最近怎么了？　　：没有啊。　　：那你为什么心情不好？　　：没有啊。　　：又是没有啊，你除了这句话以外没有别的吗？你知不知道我很担心，很没有安全感，你到底有没有当我是你女朋友？　　：...对不起。　　：我不要听你说对不起。　　
　　我挂了电话，他也没有打来，他根本就不在乎我，也许，我们该结束ㄌ..........这是他说的第99句对不起....。　　从那天开始，我再也没有找过他，他也没有打电话给我，有时候，我会接到一通无声的电话，但是我喂了几声，就挂了，有一种直觉是他，但是他为什么都不说话？一个月之后，我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他，我在教室外东张西望的，就是没有看到他的人影，我随便抓了一个男生来问。　　：同学，请问一下，梦伟今天有来吗？　　：他休学了。　　：啊？为什么？什么时候的事？　　：他已经一个月没来了。　　：...喔..谢谢。一个月..一个月没来，怎么会呢？　　我跌跌撞撞的回到家..拨他的手机：您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱，请在嘟一声...。我挂了电话，打到他家，响了好久都没有人接，怎么会？全家移民吗？他仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样，没有一点痕迹。　　他该不会另结新欢了吧？我开始胡思乱想，我找不到他..，正当我烦恼的时候，电话突然响了，是阿立打来的，他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。　　
　　：喂，你还在干嘛啊？　　：什么？　　
　　：ㄚ伟在医院啦。　　：真的？他怎么了？　　
　　：没有啦，他在○○医院，就是你上次住的那一家。　　：我马上去。　　
　　我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院，在医院看到了他****和妈妈，我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后，就急忙的飞奔而去。　　
　　他躺在床上，眼睛看着我，没有说话，没有起床，一动也不动的。　　：喂，你怎么了？为什么不通知我呢？　　
　　他没有回答我，只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。　　：回答我啊，你为什么不说话？　　他眼角留下了一滴泪，身体仿佛用了最大的力气，牵动着嘴角　　：...对不起...。说完，他闭上了眼睛。　　：喂，你别装了好不好，为什么要说对不起，我不要你说对不起啊，你起来啊，回答我啊。　　
　　我哭倒在他床边，拉着他的衣服哭喊着：你为什么要说对不起，连说服我的理由都没有？我不会原谅你，你起来啊，你说对不起没有用啊，你不起来我这辈子都不会原谅你，我求求你....睁开眼睛啊...。　　这是他说的一百句对不起...一群医生和护士拉开我，开始抢救他，我全身没有力气再站起来，我的头脑一片空白，眼前一片漆黑..。　　他没有离开这个世界，只是我永远都无法触摸到他，但他有时也会在我的梦中出现，告诉我他过的好不好。　　
　　他还是陪着我，还是活着，在我心里，他依然如昔，还是会笑着叫我咏熙，叫我老婆，只是..他不再对我说对不起了...。　　
　　过了几个月，他妈妈来找我，给了我一个盒子，里面装的，是一百张照片，每一张照片的背面，都写着它让我生气的事情。　　第一次对不起，老婆，我今天不是故意迟到的，我也知道理由很烂，但是我真的不忍心说实话，我在出门前突然心脏绞痛，但是我已经尽量赶了，原谅我好吗？第二次对不起?老婆，我.......... 　　第三次对不起，老婆，我... 　　................................ 　　............................ 　　................... 　　................ 　　........... 　　......... 　　..... 　　第一百次对不起，老婆，我不是狠心要丢下你，只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子，为你带上戒指，你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩，也是我第一个想共度一生的女孩，原谅我不能给你幸福，我会化作天使，守护着你，看着你得到幸福，答应我，别哭，我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子，我爱你。bye 梦伟　　
　　我怎么可能不哭，你的要求太严苛了，最后一张照片，是他在医院理拍的，照片上他笑的很灿烂，他变的好瘦，脸色好苍白，但是他还是露出了笑容，拍这第
　　一百张照片。　　
　　在他最虚弱罪痛苦的时候，我没有陪着他。　　对不起。　　我抱着他的照片，泪流不止！！愿天下所的情人.愿你们能珍惜眼前的人,不要失去后才懂得珍惜...不要让悲剧再次上演!
" 如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?
祝福全天下所以的有情人~都能夠忠誠眷屬~~"

还爱着你心中曾经那朵红玫瑰吗？

2008-04-17T19:29:00.001+08:00

还爱着你心中曾经那朵红玫瑰吗？
曾经，
是否有一朵这样的红玫瑰在你心中绽放。
曾经，
是否有一个美丽的名字成为你夜夜梦中的呓语。
曾经，
是否有一份深深的爱让你大喊：“为了你，抛弃天下又何妨？”
也是曾经，
愚蠢的丘比特、糊涂的月老只将心动给了其中的一个。
也是曾经，
三个字：“我爱你！”换来的却是四个字：“我不爱你！”
也是曾经，
承受爱一个人的痛苦却始终得不到被一个人爱的幸福。
…………
有这样一个故事（本故事纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯属巧合，请不要对号入座）：
男孩在见到女孩的第一面的时候就发觉自己爱上了她，这绝对不是一见钟情的爱。
单相思是很苦的，男孩很聪明，他决定告诉她，告诉她自己的想法。
男孩知道有可能得到的是拒绝，但是至少也许可以作为一段美丽爱情的开端……
认识的过程很平常，很普通，却很惬意，不过在深夜电话中聊天真的可以拉近心与心的距离吗？
爱情，很容易让人冲昏头脑，对，的确是这样的……
表白，意外的被接受了，是该高兴吗？
时间，带来了失败的开端。美丽的爱情宣言变成了愚人节的玩笑…………
直到男孩清醒之后，才发现了这残酷的事实……
接着来的，自然是厌烦与拒绝，伤心与痛苦……
“这就是所谓的没有缘分！”
女孩这样说。
“爱一个人不需要任何理由，同样，不爱一个人也是……”
女孩还这样说。
“我只知道我会永远永远的这样爱你，永远永远的为你守侯……”
男孩这样回答。
…………
故事没有结束……
男孩这样说也这样做，只希望能够用自己的付出去打动一颗不属于自己的心。
还有什么叫痴情吗？
女孩的每个举动、每个变化都会牵动男孩的心。
还有什么叫迷恋吗？
梦中的呓语、酒醉的低吟，都离不开女孩的名字。
还有什么叫疯狂吗？
感动！
男孩得到了女孩的感动！
还有歉疚！
男孩永远无法得到女孩的爱。
丘比特的恶作剧？月老的童心？
制造了两个人这样的关系。
男孩完全不计较回报的付出、不计较目的的爱永远都只能得到感动和歉疚。
“如果你给我一个机会，你会知道我对你的爱有多深。”
“好，我可以做你女朋友，但我却不能做到爱你。”
“如果你能爱我，我可以用我的一切去换。”
“你知道这是……不可能的……”
女孩哭了，男孩想哭，却忍住了，他知道了自己该做什么。
让自己心爱的人伤心，比让自己伤心要更痛苦十倍。
爱一个人，无论用什么方法都要让她幸福，让她快乐。
第二天，男孩变了……
没有了以往的痴情，没有了以往的眷念，也没有了以往的疯狂。
男孩以后再也没有去找过女孩，甚至再也没有说过一句话……
仿佛这段故事就随着太阳的升起而结束……
…………
故事还是没有结束……
v有人说，时间能冲淡一切，但也有人说，时间能证明一切。
三年后，
当男孩和女孩即将结束学业，各奔前程的时候，
当男孩和女孩分离后也许再也不能相见的时候，
当女孩仿佛想到做点什么的时候，突然听到男孩进了医院的消息。
“为了救一个小孩，被汽车撞了，还没有度过危险期……”医生如是说。
女孩哀求着想要见他，医生不同意。
“那求你转告他让他一定要坚强地活下来，因为我……我发现我非常的爱他……”
医生在昏迷不醒的男孩耳边如实说了这句话。
医生仿佛看到男孩皱紧的眉头微微地松开了，嘴角泛起一丝笑意……
但是不幸，第二天早上，随着太阳的升起，一个灵魂同时离开了它的躯体开始飞升……
女孩又哭了，男孩没有哭，临死的时候，嘴角泛着微微的笑容。
在墓碑前，女孩仿佛听到男孩的声音：
“我希望能永远看到你快乐幸福的笑脸……”
此后，女孩一直快乐坚强地生活，再也没有伤心过。
也许在别人看来，故事的结局未免不太完美，并不圆满，
但是不正如男孩所希望的，女孩得到了幸福与快乐。
也许曾经你的生命中也深爱着这样一个人，
由于种种原因，你们却永远无法在一起，
你怎么面对的呢？
不过，请记住：
爱一个人，
无论用什么方法都要让她幸福，让她快乐。
即使，要你选择放弃。
　
　
　

sport day~~

2008-04-09T19:36:00.002+08:00

today n tml would be d sport days of my school...a tiring activity of d year~~
today went to complex tooooOOOoooo early dy as many teachers haven reached oso, so waited ter alone, din c my partner pang's shadow at all, feel so sien, as i woke up at 5 in d morning, OMG, early le....i oso dunno why i so obedient n teng wa one, ppl tend to be late to this sport day n i so 'hardworking' to arrived so early...im crazy i think...no ppl notice i was so hardworking oso..do things for 0 purpose...soh po meng yee~these 2 days sdk was so so so so hot, so today...my beloved sun goh goh sek me so much...kiss me whole face n hands, make my face n hands become so dark dy...s**kssss.....i put on my sun block dy but it seems din work lo...sien sai...d weather was so so so hot la, sitting ter oso can sweat like hell...plus i have no duty these 2 days, i have done my job b4 sport days...so im like a soh po, sitting on d audience seat...staring on d padang, looking on those kononnya atletes running like a turtle ter....wah...God, help me~~
n tml would be another my god day for me~~~HELP~~~

超累一个星期

2008-03-28T15:47:00.000+08:00

没想过是一个超累得星期

sorry!~~

2008-03-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

my frens complaining i din write my blog for a long time dy, sorry guys n gals...last time i don have streamyx ma so cant online so much, but now...no more worries...i share d streamyx with my bro dy, so can online anytime i wan..so...v can keep in touch again lor...hope can have more time on writing my blog loa...but today...don expect too much from me ya..i need to prepare for my lessons tml, so share a good songs with u all la...muakssss...miss all my frensss..

杨宗纬 - 幸福的风
作词：陶晶莹
作曲：谢布暐
因為我永远只能一个人生活
孤单的快乐哀愁
偶尔可以偽装瀟洒
只有心里慌乱起来自己喝酒
因為你只是一个美丽的偶然
吹淋我不经意降落
谁知道你不同
谁知道你不走
拥抱著我说终于找到了我
你看穿我的轮廓
亲吻我的奋勇
不在乎我曾经的错
如果不是你的款款温柔
还以為真爱只是一个传说
请相信我的承诺
虽然有点笨拙但
我看见幸福的风
如果我把我的手放在背后
愿不愿意牵著一起走
因為你只是一个美丽的偶然
吹淋我不经意降落
谁知道你不同
谁知道你不走
拥抱著我说终于找到了我
你看穿我的轮廓
亲吻我的奋勇
不在乎我曾经的错
如果不是你的款款温柔
还以為真爱只是一个传说
请相信我的承诺
虽然有点笨拙
但我看见幸福的风
如果我把我的手放在背后
愿不愿意牵著一起走
你看穿我的轮廓
亲吻我的奋勇
不在乎我曾经的错
如果不是你的款款温柔
还以為真爱只是一个传说
请相信我的承诺
虽然有点笨拙
但我看见幸福的风
如果我把我的手放在背后
愿不愿意牵著一起走
愿不愿意牵著到最后

1st week of teaching

2008-01-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

time reli fly so fast, then fin my 1st week of my teaching life..how was my teaching for this week? tiring, n my log so sour..yest my leg 抽筋for twice, so cham oh, so now i walk like a handicap ppl, coz reli so pain, this morning while im in school, i have to pretend nothing happen n needed to walk like normal me, so suffer oh, my 小腿reli so pain pain pain...make me think of carol, opss...soli...din mean anything oh, but make me think of how u feel lor my dear, reli feel not so good while walking, n cant walk normally oso...muakss...ganbade oh my dear~~

thou it was my 1st week teaching only, i dy start marah-ing ppl in class dy, can consider i almost marah each class i enter for last wed n today...reli cant tahan those little kids so 没大没小, reli can pretend no teacher in d class n talk among themselves only, n most annoying is tat..they speak foul words in front of me, Gosh..they reli think i don understand o wat? so dare to speak those words in front of me ah...but..i cant do anything oso, jus can warn them n make them feel shame in d class...coz i terus marah marah only...y i so geng start marah-ing ppl so fast? i oso wonder why, coz normally im so tame one, ahahaha...i don like marah ppl bah, so i oso wonder why, then...i blame on my AV, wahahhahha....but real oh, b4 my AV n d period during my AV, i found dat my temper reli become so bad dy, reli can easily get angry n marah ppl...sure i can control, but while facing those monkeys n special spesies monkeys, no need la i think, terus marah, no need give face geh, if not they won respect me in d future anymore, must give them a 下马威1st, right? teaching lower form must let them know that they cant easily bully us, im d one n only can bully them..hahahaha...

guess wat...my option is maths and physics, guess wat i teach starting next week? math? physics? sorry la...tiada apa2 yg berkenaan dgnnya tak kira yg hidup atau mati...im giving d task to teach chinese n seni...yes..u din c me type anything wtong, is CHINESE N SENI!!!!! unbelievable, shameful, impossible...hahha...this is wat i learn in d chinese drama野蛮奶奶之大战哥史奶~~yes yes yes...for me this even chinese oso cant speak well ppl then can teach chinese, reli 不可思异! i got terus-terang n told d headmistress puan teo tat my basic reli not tat good, but she said its ok, then i ok lor....hahaa....accept d challenge la, i sure can do it ma, coz im GOOD, wahahahahaha.....'puke'....

then, im giving d job to become d teacher advisor of the chinese orchestra band...hahaa...again...unbelievable, shameful, impossible...hahahaa, im reli like this phrase so much, same like in 小孩不笨, but i forgot how to say dy, i jus remember d 'vegetable' la, ehhehe...so i have to take turn to go back school on sat to take care of my daughters n sons practising instruments with a teacher from kk o elsewhere, so jet, i might have chance to deal with liang liang oh, wahahahaa.....luckily got pang accom me, so pang, i cannot fly me aeroplane oh, wahahahaa...

1st post in 2008

2008-01-09T15:16:00.000+08:00

hallloooooo, im back, again, ehehee, stop blogging for almost a month lor, soli soli...coz reli bz recently..oh ya, Ladies n Gentlemen, Baby n elephant, hehehee....i start teaching lo, since 07.01.2008, my 1st posting after graduated lor~~my school is SMJK Tiong Hua, a sekolah bantuan kerajaan, not a fully government school, so d budget for doing things are limited sometimes lor..but can consider is a chinese school lo, more than 80% is chinese students n even teachers oso majority are chinese. not bad oh rite?
how my last job? since i not yet confirm in d company, so i only need 24 hours notice then can leave the company dy lor, so no worries, my last day in Maxland was 31.12.2007, day to remember so much, muahahaha, even my last day i oso went to meeting with big boss, luckily he din give out any bananas dat day, ehehehe...jus work 2 months then i start teaching lo, actually quite lucky lo, coz i reli din expect i can get my posting so fast lor, start teaching with those interview in July oso, macam so unfair to them, but so nice to me la, muahahaha...
before start working, i had a taklimat in KK, stary 3 days 2 nites in Palace Hotel, all cover by d government, so nice, wahahaa, then, government servant style, 6 meals a day, until v all so fat fat dy after d taklimat, li hai le? to me, its like a vacation for me b4 start teaching lor, actually long time no enjoy like tat dy since i start working in Maxland, coz everyday oso need work woh, how can enjoy le? so consider last vacation b4 teaching, ehehehe...after tat...start my teaching life for 30 yrs lor...56 yrs old only can retire ma...:(, cham cham lor...

back-dated blog

2007-12-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

thursday 13.12.2007
going to labuan
yeah yeah, today finally can go labuan lor, i dreamt to go for a long long time dy lor, last time cant join pang n siao fung, then finally today can go b4 foo back sdk work, yeah yeah...super dupper happy~~

wednesday 12.12.2007
going for interview
today is my big day, im having my teacher interview at rumah persekutuan, jabatan pelajaran negeri Sabah...nervous? act not reli lor, i oso dunno why i reli not so nervous as i think i will, macam biasa saja...even jet oso wanna worry for me, ahahaha...i so dam ding tim, make me so ng hou yi shi oh, hehe..then have a breakfast with jet nearby her house then send me to sembulan to have my interview...
reached ter, i met few coursemates ter, then Yuk Yung told me, d office ppl din know tat ter will be an interview for d day, WAT? dunno? means no interview? start worry a bit, then a 'handsome' officer ter tell us to sign for attendance, ok la, means they know ter will be an interview later la, so make me fong sam a bit lor, then oao have to wait ter for quite a while then only they asked us to go in n wait in d meeting room...waited for almost 1.5 hour, then only we saw 1 out of d 2 panel reached meeting room...a woman, with an outstanding charisma n professinal, make me quite yan siong her, but from her outlook, sure she will bomb us a lot when she interview us...ahhaha...be ready to die...then i reli die a lot when i went in for interview...
ok, talk bout my interview..there r 2 panels ter, i only remember d lady's name, miss marie...she asked bout pedagogy at 1st, then i managed to answer all her Qs, then she ask bout the minister's name, wah..kena sudah, coz i reli dunno who is d KPM deputy's name, then she gave me 2 min to go out n ask who so ever n then gave her d answer later, so scary oh, then i fast fast go out n ask lo, luckily the malay girl know then help me once dy..then after tat, asked bout PIPP oso..list d 6 teras, ok no problem, i memorize dy, but..then she asked tat how d government do to closer d gap between normal n handicap students...opss...i only know d surface facts...when wanna go into it, i reli dunno la, then bluff ter, said watever i can but she keep on shoot me so much..die hard lor...hehehe...so sad after it, msg kian then he said something not nice oso, make me more sad n had a little quarrel with him...sien sai, keep on quarrel with him lately..then after d test...end of everything, dy 2pm, felt so hungry then asked jet send me to eat McD...ahhaha, long time no eat dy, miss miss so much...din got for shopping coz both of jus dy so tire, then back home n sleep a while...
nit time, went to have dinner with loong n siew tien, long long time no meet loong dy, still d same, still bully me, ahahaha....then went to have coffee bean oso..then back home, ready to go Labuan d next day...yeah yeah...

tuesday 11.12.2007
going to kk tonite
Today, is d day of our in charge back from holi at Indonesia. but once she back, i dy wan her to approve my 3 days leave start tml, ahahaha...sui yan oh hoh, but wat to do? i dy very good wait her back only take leave not straight on leave on today la...
nite time, my flight at 9.10pm, but mum early early dy wan me go airport, scare d plane will fly early, but i not reli so scare oso, ahhaha...sure d flight will wait for me one, once i haven check in, they cant just leave like tat geh, rite?
reached kk on time then met jet n siew tien at airport, i will stay at her house during my trip in kk, sure she won reject me n welcome me so much la, since im here i can accom her ma, then she no need so boring at home, c, MY function very geng woh, can make ppl less boring one ma, wahahaha...reach kk dy feel very tire, coz after a whole day working plus rush here n ter eh, then thou loong ask to out yamcha, i say no oso, plus i need to prepare for d interview next day oso ma, coz i reli din prepare anything yet lo, thou got study a bit, but oso not enuf lo i think, coz sure d interviewer will ask a lot bout edu things, n i not reli know much, wahahahah..even d minister of edu i oso forgot his name dy, wahahahah...last time i still remember geh now dy forget lo...ini apa orang kan? my boss's name oso can forget one....so when reached jet's house, revise a bit on PIPP n d minister name then oso learn how to sing d lagu guru too...hahahahaa...who knows will kena ask to sing ter later? ahahhaa...then kian n i had a little fight too...so sien, i so in need of him but he still wanna quarrel with me...sien sai...then i don choi him n sleep dy..let him worry himself ter, wahahahah...d evil MY here...

no fuel

2007-12-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

haha, my saga no fuel dy lo, act i saw d board showing fuel warning for 2 days dy, but i still don wan to go n refill...coz i so stingy dy ma, wanna go refill woh, sure need $$$ woh, hahahaa, sure ng seh dak la, coz later i need to pay around rm300 for d air ticket, then go labuan eh, eat eh, shopping eh..i think this KK trip sure will finish my whole month's salary lor, then for d rest of 20 days, i can eat air only lo, hahah, can keep fit then, ok la, nvm la..heheh~~
noon time, after fong gong, i went to have lunch with Yee Shee at san mei ter, dat day i drink vincent's pepper soup was so nice oh, so today i order d pepper soup too..then chat a lot with shee, all about our work stuff...her company reli so nice oh compare to mine..hai, no tat kind of luck then sure cant get that kind of good job lo..but nvm, after interview n if nothing special happen, i will have my posting very soon, then eat government's rice, hahah..sure best lo~~

interview letter

2007-12-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

this morning, i left my IC for my dad try to take d letter for me, since i don wan to take 1 hour leave, so i jus left d IC for him, plus i wrote a letter too, kononnya give kuasa to my dad to take d letter for me, but at last, d ppl in post office asked nothing at all, jus took my IC n wrote down my IC number n tats it, my dad help me to take d letter dy. then at 9pm, i called back home, then mum told me, my interview will be on 12.12.07, at KK. so, start tat moment, my brain is so stress, coz i need to plan when should i take leave, where should i stay in kk, wat reason i have to give to apply for leave, which airplane i should take n who can help me when im in KK...my brain turn n turn n turn, wish can come out a good plan...but..not reli lor, coz i cant make up my mind at all. talked to ah foo n jet in msn, foo ask me to go Labuan oso, make me 'heart big heart small' wan to go oso..but i reli cant apply so many leave la, deduct a lot oh...next month no money to use la, coz i plane to go KK during new year oso ma..so reli hard to make up my mind yet...then...i start feel stress to survive in d office, start feel tat, wat ever v do, no matter it is right o wrong, ppl sure will gossip behind u, ppl will cucuk from behind, reli so scaring n unsecure..my mood wasnt good today, i din talk much n smile much, miss lok feel tat im so strange, she quite caring to me, ask me a lot, whether im not feeling well o got problem, however, i din reli tell her what is bothering in my mind, jus tell her tat im alright, thou reli seems so not right la...but im sure tml i will be MY again, coz i so optimistic ma, thou when problems come, i will feel down, but im sure d next day, im okay already, coz i im 'big prawn head' ma, so easy can forget thing geh, ehehe, i feel happy i have this bad habit oso, coz i reli no need to always keep those unhappy memories in my small brain, if not sure will feel so stress oh, rite?
when i am so down, i think of him at the very 1st moment, then sms him n tell him that i feel so unhappy, but, i reli dunno is my wrong o its fate, everytime i m so down so unhappy so stress so need him can accom me a bit, he is sure very bz n no time can talk much with me one..reli feel so 'dap' one, n this make me feel more down n unhappy, when he finally can share some time to call me, i feel d timing past dy..thou he wanna do something to make me happier, but it seems he has failed to do so, coz i reli cant make myself happier dy after such a while...do u understand how i feel? is it so confuse? sorry, i oso not sure what im talking now, jus feel wanna to write down my feeling at this moment!
then, i make up my mind dy, i wanna go KK on 11.12.07, night flight, then take leave on 12, 13 n 14, i want to go Labuan!! i want to go Labuan while ah foo is still ter to take me around, i wanna meet him, i long time no c my 'qing fu' dy lo, hehehe, thou not long ago he jus back sdk to attend his fren's wedding, hahaa...but reli miss d time when we all spent time together, sit down at PUB, drink juice n talked nonsense for d whole night, frens, do u all miss tat moment? hope we can meet up again soon, miss u all~~

a boring day

2007-12-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

today, very boring..din reli have much to do at office today, so jus oways open this file, tat file, pretending im so busy doing things, ahahah, act no need pretend oso can la, coz my big big boss not around, d cctv ter oso useless la, but anyhow, sure still need to pretend some la, who knows ter is someone wanna cucuk me from behind? so since i din have much to do, i start to play game with few of my cute cute colleagues..play reversi..ahhaa, finally i win today lor, i beat tracy finally, yest lose to her..hahaha...play quite a few times with them, then suddenly feel so unsecure, like there is someone watching me from behind..giving a sharp starring...then..i told them tat v better don play lo, coz scare v will receive a warning letter, coz play game in d office, then so f*ck lor...hahaa...
today, sing yee sms me n told me tat got frens received letter to go for interview on 12 dec n ask whether i got it o not..sure i haven, but i suddenly got a feel, i not sure is instinct o wat, i call back home n ask dad to go open d mail box n check whether there is any letter for me. then at around 4pm, dad called me, n yes, he got a registered letter for me, n it required me to go take it myself..my fren told me tat d leter should be a registered letter, so i quite sure this is d letter to ask me go for interview, i so nervous oh, plus excited too, coz finally i got news from d government lor, then my teacher life is no far away dy..hehehe...but another Q come, d interview, if with no mistake, will be held on 12.12.07, is Tuesday..n it is a working day, n it is next week...i only have 5 more days to prepare for d interview n i have done nothing at all for all this while thou Jet dy gave me d books for a long long time dy..i did read it for once, n thats all...aiks, i dy forget all those principles n wat sekolah bestari n bla bla bla la..a big headache is coming oso la..so god, please help me...

KWSP

2007-12-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

today after lunch, back office to continue my boring office hour life as usual...then i saw Syah wanna go out with uncle Liao, then dunno why suddenly i will ask uncle tat where are they wanting to gom then he told me tat they are going to KWSP to do something..oh yes, go to KWSP ah, then i asked him whether i can follow him to go o not coz i haven open account for my KWSP yet, then he said: sure can la, why not..u doing this as part of office thing too ma...ahha, then, i went out to do my KWSP, n for 1 1/2 hour, i can curi tulang secara terang2nya...coz no ppl can say me curi tulang..coz i reli doing d serious thing oso ma, hahaha...feel so syok, no need to waste my lunch hour n go do this kind of thing..hehee...untungnya~~
then went back to office...drink QQ ice lagi...as for me this food poisoning ppl, i still not scare to die one, drink this cold n maybe willl make me stomachache thing wah..u say me reli so 'jin' rite? if i cant recover in this 3 days, can say 'dai sei' too...hahaa...y i curse myself like this ah? sure i can recover 1 ma...thou i forgot to take my medicine on time...my bro la..he took my phone this noon, i dy set alarm to remind myself to take medicine ma, i know i sure will forget one, but then he came fine me this noon n take my phone dy coz he send his new hp to wrap ma..then i forget to eat la...untuil fong gong time, then only i remember n then only i take d medi lor..hai...don angry me la..i oso don wish this to happen ma..i won repeat again lor..hahaha~~

minor food poisoning

2007-12-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

tis noon, during my lunch hour, kian urged me to go c doctor, act i reli din wan to go, coz this morning my stomach din pain ma, so i think it is better dy, but, kian's face was so black at tat time, till i reli not dare to say no, so i follow him to d nearest clinic, Clinic Dr. Raja, read d name oso know it is a indian doctor la rite? so when i went in, i registered myself then waiting for my turn to c this handsome doctor..hehe..kian's face was so black coz he faced so much problems in his working this morning, so his mood was not so good..d moral of d lesson: don ever say NO to him whenever he is not in d good mood, or, u will die!!
its my turn to c d doctor, n...according to him, according to his profesional, according to his specialization..im food poisoning...tats y i have this continuos stomachache for a da*n whole week dy. Gosh...food poisoning? wat did i eat? n this is not d 1st time i got food poisoning man, d second time dy lo! my cheong wai reli tat worst oh...n i wondering wat did i eat last week, nothing special ah, n i conclude myself tat...coz i continuosly eat outside for lunch for whole month dy, since my cheong wai dy not good, sure all those dirty dirty things accumulate inside my stomach, then at last..food poisoning! haha, am i rite? i wonder... d consultancy fee took me RM 30 for 3 kinds of medicine..so d*mn expensive...but wat to do, food poisoning woh, now is only minor, if don go doc now, later got severe dy...gosh...i cant imagine tat~~ doc asked me not to eat solid food n don drink milk...but after c doc, i went to take my lunch, thou is vege rice, but it still solid food ma, rite? nvm la, if don eat, then eat wat woh...eat air meh...
today, inside my office, d 'hei fan' wasnt so right..nearly there was a great quarrel happened, n im so lucky that it didnt happen. why would it be like this? i know..but i don wan to tell ah..hahaa...kidding la..act its hard for me to explain oso...but my fren told me about office politics, n how will it hurt u quitely, n hey fren, it is so right oh! i reli hope i will never get into any of them~~blesses on me~~

continuous stomachache

2007-12-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat happen to me, i have this weird 'diesease' for a continuos week dy lor, not those kind of stomachache that need to go toilet n 'bomb' the tokyo, hehe, but jus little pain now, then better, then come back, then get better...go to toilet tot wanna do big stuff...but none one..i reli dunno wat happen...last nite reli feel so unwell, not only stomachache, plus headache tim...feel so down, kian wasnt by my side at 1st, we were sms-ing at d nite, then suddenly i din get any reply from him when i told him dat i feeling now well, feel so sad, then i went in my room, off my light, n ready to sleep. then kian sms me, asked me to wait him..oh, he was so sweet...he drove from his house n buy food for me n bring me medi for stomachache too..so touch oh..feel wanna cry when i knew he was on d way come to find me...sure i din cry la..i strong ma, ehehe...then he came to my house n stay for jus 15 min i think then he left.he watched me take d medi then left..coz he was so sleepy n tire after 2 hours plus play basketball, n i was so tire n sleepy too coz i took a panadol too..so any1 can tell me why i will feel stomachache for so long? coz i eat something wrong? o my 'cheong wai' reli tat not good? coz i eat outside for a month dy during lunch? i have no idea..

1st salary~~

2007-12-01T19:44:00.000+08:00

today, is d 1st time i got my salary lor, wahahhaa...yeh yeh yeh, but, not so much la, but still can survive la! but today so sucks la, at around 11am, HR ter send a list to us, n ask us to complete d chart by writing all our camp's workers commence date...wah sai, i have 293 ppl working in my camp n u expect us to complete it in 1 hour only? thou v have high working ability, but, hey, v are not superwomen oh~~so all of us sit so quitely in d office, highly concentrate on our computer n our list, hoping tat v can complete it soon. i feel reli so stress by tat time, plus stomach keep on telling me: madam, its time to lunch lor..feel so so so hungry oh, luckily got chocolate in my drawer then i take out 2, 1 for miss Lok n 1 sure for myself, then temporary feel better..around 2, then only i finish my work, so sucks...suppose fin working at 12.30pm..but now so late only can go..suckss....

<<蒲公英的约定>>

2007-11-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

你有观看了周杰伦的电影<<不能说的秘密>>吗？
你还记得那部戏里面那感人的乐曲吗？
如果你有注意到的话，那么相信你对这首歌是很熟悉的！！

<<蒲公英的约定>>
作词：方文山　作曲：周杰伦
小学篱芭旁的蒲公英　
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音　
多少年后也还是很好听
将愿望折纸飞机寄成信　
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币　
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定　
那样清晰　打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行　
是你如今　唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心　
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧　
很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定　
那样真心　
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　
你是友情还是错过的爱情

my JAY~~

2007-11-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

my dear Jay Chou Jie Lun has released his brand new album recently, this time i admit im not his loyal fans, coz when he released his new album, i din know at all, hehee, wat so call fans wah..but don scold me ma, i was so bz with work things recently ma, hehe, wat a lame excuse. ok la, so now im listening to my beloved Jay now lor, his all 10 songs, again, i love them so much, jus like his previos album, all his songs are so nice n best!! of course la, my Jay woh, who u think he is? he is a genius in music arena, we cant deny it at all, dont u angree with me? as a fren of mine, u won say u don angry geh, rite? coz u all know i will go crazy if u criticize my dear Jay oh~~ act all his songs also given by Kian, hehe, he sure knew tat i love Jay so much oh~~ n his MV<<牛仔很忙>> is so cute oh, Jay become so cute oh~~ this is d song i love so much in his new album, if u all have a time, reli don be so stingy oh, share some time n listen to his new songs, esp this one~~

周杰伦 - 彩虹
作曲:周杰伦作词:周杰伦
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕会绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开我知道很简单你说依赖
是我们的阻碍就算放开
但能不能别没收我的爱当作我最后才明白

all about me~~

2007-11-28T11:32:00.000+08:00

個性

你是個重視美和氣氛的浪漫主義者。你沒有很強的物慾，所以，也不會特意去營造財產。你認為不必買房子，只要有住的地方即可，比起買個房子但必需遠距離通勤，你寧願在都市附近租間公寓住。你是一個在心智上完全臻於成熟的人。每天精神奕奕、充滿自信，同時又很受到朋友們的信賴。但是相對地，你對日常生活乃至人生的態度稍嫌嚴肅了一點。或許是因為你給別人的印象就是如此，而你也刻意地去表現出這一面。不過，如果你能更加任性點，偶而輕鬆一下，不要固執地想要一直去扮演完人的角色。說不定反而能提高你的聲望也說不定。你是那種吵架吵完就忘的類型。無論吵得再凶，對方說得多難聽，睡了一覺之後，你都好像沒發生過一樣地能和對方繼續相處。這樣的態度，反倒是讓對方自己覺得慚愧，而能順利地言歸於好。你是個很浪漫的人，生活態度也像夢般的虛幻。對錢很不在意，只有在感覺錢是很重要的時候，才會加以儲蓄。麊鷟犒B用漫不經心，常會丟掉錢包，借給別人的錢也常常會忘記。由於你浪漫的個性，所以不要等到要救急時才存錢，更要有計畫的管理錢財，這樣對你才會有幫助。你是一個有自信的人，雖然你不是做到態度上的咄咄逼人，可是只要你堅持一個想法，無論別人如何去唆使、蠱惑你，你都不為所動，不過這不代表你是剛愎自用的，相反的，你很喜歡聽到別人對你的建言，是一個很不錯的人喲！你喜歡正大光明與人迎面鬥上，因為你認為自己好像是舞臺上的主角，一定要有出色的表現。所以一開始可能只是一個小爭端，但你會戲劇性誇大其嚴重性，將現場緊繃的張力延伸至最大，你不過是想爭取群眾的注意罷了。只要給你面子，讓你得到一些掌聲，事情就可以馬上落幕。你是心地非常善良的人，但與人相處時為了不想暴露自己的缺點而設了一道防線，所以有時會被人誤會為不容易親近之人，雖然朋友不多，但能擁有深厚友誼。再者有優秀的數字能力，能在理工上一展長才。你的個性保守,相當重視道德.因此這種類型的人很重視自己的想法,不勉強自己與他人交往,有頑固的一面.你能擁有一份可以發揮自己專長的工作,逐步完成自己的夢想。還有，你脾氣變化無常，有興趣時，能認真踏實做下去，一旦失去興趣，就會對所做的事感到莫明其妙，予以放棄。

愛情

你的感情表現常常是勇敢、開明、自由的，因為你非常的坦然，因此從來不喜歡猜忌或懷疑別人對你的態度和心意。你對人有很好的包容力，如果遇到實在不喜歡的人，採取態度是迴避，不會直接衝突。暗戀是你最拿手的戀愛方式!永遠只在遠遠的地方看著心儀的人,幻想著有一天他會主動來約你.愛他就要勇敢說出來!加油唷。你一但真的愛上對方就會變的有點痴呆，可以說是對戀愛的掌控度非常不拿手，雖然你平常能夠很厲害的抓住異性的心，可是，一但在心儀的對象面前，就會變的有點笨手笨腳；而且會因為太緊張，而無法表達自己，不過這也許就是你可愛的地方也說不一定。在一旁等到沒人時才上前去欣賞那幅畫，正是屬於等候型的人。這種人只會傻傻的等待机會上門，不會自己去尋找，因此常有眼睜睜看著心上人被人搶走的經驗，真可憐！有智慧、沉靜、三思後行，尊重人，有修養的個性，是你之所以喜歡他的原因。一旦與他認識，你會希望與他共處一生。你對於戀情抱著浪漫、綺麗的夢想，對於喜歡的對象，你是不是在單戀人家呢？對你而言，得到他的愛情，就算沒有了全世界，你也會覺得沒什麼了！你外表看起來像是溫馴的小綿羊，不會做出傷人的事，但相處一久，就可以發現，在你純潔的羊皮之下，是一顆熾熱的心。因為你這樣愛到深處無怨尤的性格，才會那麼在乎對方，時刻都想黏在一起，是屬於隱性透明的強力膠。你會因愛人的言行舉止，而產生許多迷惑，你不能肯定他是否真心愛你，也不知道愛情會延續多久，所以你時常為了這個問題而煩惱不安，其實你不必這麼懷疑對方，應該以信心和誠意來對待他，才能共創永恆的愛情。基本上你算是很專情的，只是你好像不太願意去承認這些事，只把這種愛慕放在心裡，面對性時，你只是像個孩子一樣，雖然笨拙，但也純真得可愛！你給異性的感覺是個喜歡交朋友的人，所以跟你較相近的對象也應該是個悠然自得、懂得享受愛情的人。你們兩人很可能成為令人近羨的鴛鴦夫妻。這種注意格調的人，多半都是注意外表的人。你是否會認為沒戀人是件很沒面子的事呢??而當你到他家作客時，由你所在意的事情便可以看出你是否真的喜歡他。你的醋勁不算太大，但是偶爾會疾火中燒，不過不是很強烈，不過忍耐太久就會有爆發的可能。

事業
你的心智成熟度嚴格上來說還沒有真的成熟，ＥＱ比較差，常常陰晴不定的表情就會掛在臉上，做事好像也是「隨性而為」，老大不高興就擺張「憂鬱」的臉呆在那，如果有人在這時請他做事，就好像是你的不對一樣。你有點太高估自我能力，認為自己才能足以領導大家，很嚮往得到有權有名的滋味，也花上許多時間去爭取，得到後姿態擺得也粉高，卻不知自我才能其實平平，根本無法服眾，這點需要注意。

人際關係

你會是個擁有豐富專業知識的人才，而且年紀輕輕便能把自己的性格、專長、興趣逐一展現出來。事業是你一生中最重要的東西，無論從政、營商或者其你行業，都可輕易掌握，能開創一條光明大道。可是，正因過分自信，不願聽取別人意見及忠告，加上不愛受束縛，常令人感覺你狂妄自大。你狂狷的性格總為自己帶來一點麻煩，惹得別人對你的死硬脾氣有點感冒。人家覺得不是很重要的小節，在你眼中，可是了不得的大事，要是觸犯了你的禁忌，十年不相往來是很有可能發生的事。雖說如此，你對於合得來的知交，卻是好得不得了，願意以寶劍相贈知己，出手闊綽，令人咋舌。你對於朋友的懷舊度似乎不高，有時候你應該好好珍惜和朋友的友誼。

懒惰的敏仪

2007-11-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

懒惰的敏仪又回来了！这几天做工的时候终是懒懒的，没什么去做东西，加上并没有睡好，所以终是希望能够快快到了5点，那么就能回家了。不用工作的日子真是好，还真的有点后悔这么早就开始做工了。但想想，没有做工日子也很难过的，每天就像无业游民，一点贡献都没有，就好一条寄生虫一样，过久了这种生活还真的对自己会失去信心了，还是出去多认识一些人差比较好罢，朋友们，对吗？虽然工作还有点简单，但其实还真的学到了不少的东西，学会了如何观颜察色，哈哈，社会大学还这不容易读的噢！

a not bad website~~

2007-11-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

http://www.whobirdyou.com/whobirdyou/personality_tests.asp

piggy him

2007-11-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

tat piggy kian promise me will come n look for me tonite, but, jus forget it la, till now i din get any call or sms from him, so, sure he still in his sweet dream meeting 'zhao gung' n playing chess with him la, so sure 冻过水la, better stay at home n blogging la, haha!
today meeting with big boss, reli so scary man, this is d 3rd time i went for meeting but it was d 1st time i finally know how this big boss scold ppl lor, walau eh, reli 名不虚传oh, jus a tiny little mistake he oso can scold ppl till 狗血淋头. reli 佩服 him so much. but as ppl say, 受人钱财替人受罪，为了两餐是这样的啦。进入第三个星期在这里工作，开始忙起来了，尤其是今天，用了一个早上来update minits, 因为害怕开时会被骂，还好没有，不然真的是倒霉了。
放工时，我去了Hotel Tyng Garden...yo yo yo, 去干什么？嘿嘿，去interview啦，别想歪了。是之前申请到的，但我想我不会转工啦，才一个月不到就转工，开玩笑嘛！还是乖乖在这里挨吧！~~

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？是的..

2007-11-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。.也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。.不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。.他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？
很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。
因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .

porridge steamboat

2007-11-18T13:28:00.000+08:00

for 2 saturday straight, i went for d porridge steamboat with kian n his frens, yo, man, it is so nice la, d porridge steamboat reli so damn nice, hahaha, thou d food not much but once eat those porridge, dy feel so full, esp v added in d egg into d porridge, wow, it is so nice n tasty, reali cant resist it, hahaha..so must give urself a try if u r in sdk oh, but i think everywer oso got la, esp kl, my 1st time porridge steamboat was in kl, sungai wang ter, with my ex roommate, Tze Kie, she is doing her KPLI now...yest after d steamboat, went to play ps2 with hong hong, hahaaa, 1st time playing d game killing ppl one, hahaa, sure i dunno how to play, 2players ma, so hong responsible to kill d king, then im d one jus kill anyone come to attack me, not bad ma, can 'fat sit' once if v are not in d mood, then i sure got scream here n ter when i was attacked by those bad ppl, kian said he can hear my voice from upstairs, hahaaha, so paiseh la...

~Angels Brought Me Here~

2007-11-16T17:37:00.000+08:00

today is friday, 4.30pm can back from office lor, but today went home a bit late, kononnya need to pretend hardworking a bit ma, if not later boss saw me from cctv ter tat i dy start rearrange my things b4 'fong gong' then not good lor, hahaha....on my way back home, again, still like usual, a bit jam, i reli dunno why everyday when i back i need to take almost 20 min only reach home, normally it only took me 10 min to reach office from home,in d morning la, then it takes double the time for me to reach home at 5pm, god ah, stop the jam la...small town like this oso will jam, reli weird la...oh, almost stray away from wat i want to write tim..i heard a nice song from Ai FM, hehe, no more 988 o MYFM for me in sdk la...the DJ promote a song to us, then it is reli good man, thou it is an old song dy, according to him la, i oso not sure, so when i back, i straight online to look for this song, yes, here i present to u a nice song from Guy Sebastian, ~Angels Brought Me Here~ ,an Australian star, with a terrific nice vocal, melt my heart with his song..

GUY SEBASTIAN LYRICS
"Angels Brought Me Here"
[Verse 1]

It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight

Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light

Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies

There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

[Bridge]

My dreams came true, when i found you

I found you, my miracle...

[Chorus]

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers

And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Verse 2]

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again

Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

[Bridge 2]

My dreams came true, right here in front of you

My miracle...

[Chorus]

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers

And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

[Bridge 3]

Brought me here to be with you,I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)

My dreams came trueWhen I found you

My miracle...

[Chorus]

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers

And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Yes they brought me here... If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...

You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

badminton

2007-11-15T08:08:00.000+08:00

its been a really long time din play badminton dy lor, went for badminton last nite, wow, not bad ma...but when my engine was jus started up, end dy lor, so cham, so din realy play much, din sweat much, my better than none lor, coz reli long time no exercise dy lor, i don remember when was my last time went for sport, sure very very long time ago lor, no wonder i become so fat dy, my plan for years to keep fit never success at all, coz im a lazy pig pig~~nyiok nyiok~~

cold war

2007-11-14T07:55:00.000+08:00

having a cold war with her since yesterday, i oso dunno wat have i done wrong to her, in my memory, i reli din do anything wrong n make her angry, so i reli dunno wat is going on...god, help me, its torturing!!

its been a long time..

2007-11-13T07:54:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since my last blogging...lazy to face the computer again after back home from work...however, nothing special happen past last week la...so, nvm la frens, heehhe...just to tell u, i have a really happy n sweet time with Kian for d whole week, coz no quarrels dy ma, sure happy la, hope it will continue like this till forever n ever...hee, hate quarrel ma..

my 1st day of working

2007-11-03T19:48:00.001+08:00

din reli sleep well last nite, im not sure im nervous for working today o wat, coz i was in a such bad sleep recently, cant reli sleep well at nite, have to turning round n round then only i can fall asleep after 1 hour o 2, i reli dunno wat happen. kian said i drink nescafe in d morning, hey man, every morning i oso drink la, why last time i won be like tat n now im like this? reli have no idea!
woke up at 6.30am this morning, so early oh ho? but i think, for the rest few months, i have to wake up this morning too lo, reli will going to miss my sleep sleep time oh, n miss my pig pig life too...reach office at 7.50am, a bit early coz my fren haven reach yet, she is d one who will bring me to my head later lor, then sit on d sofa there, saw 2 handsome ter,hahaha, not bad man, but so sad too, coz im not d same office with them, im at d another side, another compartment...din reli do much this morning, my colleague explain to me wat i have to do for my pose, HR + admin clerk...deal with logging camps operation...OMG, 1st time deal with this kind of things, reli dunno how to start, plus my frens not same department with me, so din chat with them, maybe later lo, still got chance ma...in short, my 1st day...jus a normal boring day.

爱情

2007-11-03T19:46:00.000+08:00

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在向他们发火后，自己转过身却在不断啜泣。其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火，不会对你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，让即使生气也不会超过2天。而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲，凄凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔对你发火，时常对你娇。因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的眼泪，滂沱在脸上心里。如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；如果你喜欢她，请你多让她；如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。可是，爱情里没有谁对谁错；爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜，是快乐，不是伤害。不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。越是安静战火就越传，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害。无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道歉。

start working tml lor~~

2007-11-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

surprise!! i got a call this noon at around 3pm, a call from a fren, guess wat, yes, i been accepted to work at d company n im asked to start working tml morning, yes!! finally i got the job, no need to worry anymore lor..however..start worry oso, coz i not sure i can cope with working environment ter o not, i scare cant mix well with the workers ter, yes, it is a big company with many employees..aiks...lot to think of pula...but, jus accept n try my best to adapt to it lor..yeah~~

went for interview

2007-11-01T20:27:00.000+08:00

this morning, long time din wake up so early lor, 7.15am dy woke up, why? coz i have an interview appointment at 9am lor, so have to wake up this morning lor, cant be late for an interview mah, bad impression, hehehe! but amazingly, i reach ter at 8.55am, then i left d company at 9.15am. fast le, don forget, i use time to fill in d form as well, so my interview only took not more than 10 min, haha, 1st time i went for an interview tat took such a short time only, well, maybe coz my interviwer not d boss la, she is also a worker in the company, maybe thats d reason lor, a worker interview for a worker, sure won ask much la, she oso dunno wat to ask lor, just asked, u study for education, then why u don wan to become a teacher? if later i hire u, will u resign after several months to go for d government job? haha, sure i won la...do u believe me? hehehe..she said should be no problem for me to work there, but she still needs to inform her boss n need to get her boss's permission to hire me, cham lor, so scare her boss not agree tim..so frens, pray for me to get this job oh, i so need a job now, no money plus so boring at home dy lor, almost 'fat mou' lor~~

blesses on u my dear fren

2007-10-31T14:42:00.000+08:00

my dear fren, i always be here for u~blesses on u~

an amulet

2007-10-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

Kian gave me an amulet last nite, a thailand amulet, saying tat it can protect me n will make everything i done go smoothly without any obstacles. act not so believe, but i oso believe tat nothing is impossible, so he bought for me, then sure i will wear it. i am very happy n appreciate wat he has done for me, its not about d thing he bought for me, o d money, o anything, but its about his concern n cares for me. everytime he buy something, sure he will think of me n wanting to buy for me too, it is so sweet. im jus an ordinary traditional little sweet girl, hehe, i jus wan more cares from d one i love, tats it, then i will feel satisfy n hangfuk, yes, tat is me, d stupid little girl! having to meet him, know him better n lastly fall in love with him is jus so wonderful to me, thanks god for giving me d chance to love him, thou, v had so much quarrels recently, i jus hope it won happen so frequent now, little quarrel can make a relationship grow more mature but too much of it jus will make everything worse, i reli don hope tat will happen to me n him, blesses on us.

its been d sweetest weekend for me since d last time

2007-10-29T13:57:00.000+08:00

last 2 days were d sweetest weekend for me for so long dy, coz he finally spent so much time with me after we had so much quarrels. it was so sweet to spend so much time with him, holding hands to walk in market,(this is d only thing v can do in sdk, no shopping centres for us to go dating lo), have dinner together with his mum, hehee, 1st time out with his mum oh, so nervous oh, scare she doesnt like me much, hope she won la.
long time din feel so sweet dy oh, its reli need time for me to adjust everything then only i won thinking of those not 3 not 4, act im d one oways responsible for d quarrel, thou its not my fault everytime, but im oways d one make everything worse, maybe i reli so 'jin' gua, like to start a quarrel then last last make myself unhappy only, so now, i reli hope i won do tat anymore, coz i scare one day, i ruin my relationship myself. have strength im myself bah, hope i reli won do it again!

job finding

2007-10-26T11:41:00.000+08:00

these few days i was so bz looking for a job, bz preparing my resume, bz look tru d newspapers, bz surfing the jobstreet for a high pay job, hehee, hoping so much can get a job soon then at least won be so boring and meaningless at home.

心痛的感觉

2007-10-24T14:54:00.000+08:00

以前我都不明白心痛是怎么样的感觉，直到最近，我终于明白心痛是怎么样的感觉。它就好像心脏病的感觉，虽然并不是很清楚心脏病到底是怎样回事，但我想大概也是这样的疼痛罢。它会一下一下抽痛你的心房，让你感觉呼吸困难，让你觉得四肢无力，手脚冰冷。心痛的感觉真的不是很好，它就像偏头痛一样，静静的跟着你，让你不知所措，进退两难。要如何赶走心痛感觉？我也不知道。

my china trip

2007-10-24T14:15:00.000+08:00

im back~~

2007-10-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

yeah, finally im back from my journey back to china, hahaa, but unexpected, i really went back to my 'gu siang'...

要出国了~~

2007-10-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

还有两天时间我就要出国了，去那里？我和我妈妈会回我们的祖国了，bingo!!就是中国也！！这么大的一个女孩，我还是第一次出国呢！但其实并不是太期待，可能是因为去地方都不是的shopping地方吧，哈哈，好现实噢!原本打算今早开始收拾行李的，但时间就这么一分一分过，一天过去了，但我一点也没收拾，真是的。也没话说了。

especially dedicated to you, ivy

2007-10-08T12:05:00.000+08:00

歌手：张震岳/mc hotdog/侯专辑：ok

<<就让这首歌>>
今夜一直重复
我们都没错
只是看清楚
原来不懂的事
没有什么好说
现在先不要说
就让我们沉默
最后的拥抱
爱情的终点
回忆一触即发如何忍住眼泪
不让她哭唏哩哗啦筑就深情这样好吗
从今以后各走各的路
身上留过你的沓图
怎么可能不在乎
不怪现在只怪当初
谁辜负了谁糊涂
清醒了没越是卖醉却不醉
绕了一圈圈越想念谁
吃定了谁电影散场了没
又怎么会虎头蛇尾看你哭红又肿的双眼
一把眼泪一把鼻涕
从喜剧变成悲剧
怎么继续只好放着这首歌曲
她一直用力在听
你是我的另一个人爱这么过瘾
就像生命共同体如今却只能写下这回忆
电影散场之后你是否留下什么
一切不难再重头那感伤对画面说
这决定变得轻松夜深人静心回头
有首歌它一直 repeat repeat 是为了什么
是分手的时候就让我们自由
回忆一幕幕就像一场电影
原来一直感动
电影终要结束结束难免痛苦
心中留下伤痕
就让这首歌萦绕在耳边
我尝试刻画着每一次
曾经快乐的每一日
这首歌要播几次有太多的舍不得事
歌词像针在刺旋律让眼眶湿
曾几何时开始静止打不开的画夹
从你哝我哝的梦到现在你懂我懂的沉默
所有的痛就让时间来破
电影散场之后就在那回首处
你别走回头路
我只能头也不回地藏住感触
少了骗人的拼图怎么拼得出那版图
我真心为你祝福
有没有那么一首歌会让你很想念
有没有那么一首歌你会假装听不见
听了又掉眼泪却按不下停止键
多少的夜就这样开着灯到另一个夜
我们之间有多少故事在这首歌的里面
人不在就让这首歌在回忆也还在
就让这一首歌今夜一直重复
我们都没错只是看清楚原来不懂的事
哦没有什么好说现在先不要说
就让我们沉默
最后的拥抱爱情的终点

最近发现张震岳的歌曲都很好。偶然发现这首歌，很想让你听听，朋友，你要加油噢，所有的事情都能解决的，只要真心下了决定，我相信你是可以作的到的，我会支持你的，加油加油加油，aza-aza fighting, fight fight fight!!!~~~

一切重头开始

2007-10-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

今天和他达成了一个协议，我们决定一切重头开始。我不知道这是一个好的决定或一个不当的想法，一切重头开始？到底是什么意思呢？以前的一切是什么呢？或许我不该再想了，我不想有什么事发生了，就当一切都解决了，一切雨过天晴了。今天和雨诗，丽芳去唱歌，听一首我曾经很喜欢的歌曲。

~beautiful love~

蔡健雅

看住时间
别让它在再流浪
从前我太适应悲伤
你的出现在无意中
却深深撼动我
一起走着没说什么
心是满足的
这个世界
随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着
温热的感受
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着
每秒钟
都能证明一生的美丽
这个世界
随时都要崩塌
我没有其它的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得,被你抱着
温热的感受
love's beautifu
lso beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
love's beautiful
so beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢的爱着
每秒钟
都能证明一生的美丽
love's beautiful
so beautiful

如果一个男人真的爱你~~

2007-10-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

如果一个男人真的爱你,他的手机会为你24小时开机,在你最需要他的时候可以随时找到他,因为他爱你, 所以会时时担心你......如果一个男人爱你,他会很自豪的告诉他的朋友与家人你是他最爱的女人,当然并不是时时挂在嘴上,而是用一种行动去告诉别人,你是他最爱的女人！因为有了你他觉得很骄傲,无论你是不是真的很优秀......如果一个男人真的爱你,他会把除了工作之外的很多时间都给你,当然会偶尔和朋友去聚会,因为他想时时刻刻都看见你......如果一个男人真的爱你,他会毫不吝啬的给你物质上的付出（我并不是说所有的女孩子都应该物质化,这种付出是他心甘情愿的）因为他觉得他所有辛苦的努力就是为了让你过上很幸福的生活,他爱你,不想让你过的那么艰苦......如果一个男人真的爱你 ,他绝对不会骂你,在你很任性的时候任你发泄,当你任性过去的时候,会很委屈的说：“老婆,我又作错什么了？你可以告诉我,我一定改,千万不要生气,那样会把身体气坏的”如果一个男人真的爱你,你会发现你和他在一起后,不经意间发现你总有很多穿不完的衣服 ,而此时你会发现他的裤子上有个小洞洞,他会很解嘲的说：“现在不是流行乞丐服吗？再说男人要有内涵, 穿那么好干什么？”呵呵,因为他总是看见漂亮的东西就买给你......如果一个男人真的爱你,他就不在乎陪你逛街会浪费他多少出去自由的机会,因为他甘愿失去那种所谓的自由......如果一个男人真的爱你,无论你们在一起多久,都会陪你一起爬山,看海,看星星,看日落,因为他知道你渴望这样的浪漫......如果一个男人真的爱你,他绝对不会嚷嚷着叫你去减肥,但是这个时候你自己一定要去健康减肥,因为苗条的女人确实可以叫人赏心悦目。因为你的健康是他最关心的......如果一个男人真的爱你,他不会留恋与网络与别的小妹眉甜言蜜语,因为对你他都有说不完的爱,哪有那心思和别人废话......如果一个男人真的爱你,他不会还和前女友很密切联系,虽说分手了还是朋友 ,在她困难的时候可以去帮助她,但是不会超过朋友的底线...... 如果一个男人真的爱你,他在每天很辛苦的工作回到家的时候,会抱着你说“老婆,我回来了”他爱你,他绝对不会把不快乐带给你!......如果一个男人真的爱你,他会在清晨上班的时候,亲吻你的眼睛, 满足的说：宝贝,我上班去了！”......如果一个男人真的爱你,他绝对不会忍心背叛你,无论出于什么样的动机。。因为在他眼里,你是最美的..即便你不是......如果一个男人真的爱你,他会在你故意说要离开的时候,撒娇的不和你分开,而在你真的想离开的时候,就会放你走,即便他真的不愿意放手。因为他爱你,只希望你幸福......如果一个男人真的爱你,那么你会比他的事业更重要,他绝对不会已事业为借口推脱你 ......如果一个男人真的爱你,他不会陪这所谓的客户去做所谓的应酬,(很多男人把找小姐说是谈生意需要）他宁可不要这个业务,世界上又不是只有这个业务......如果一个男人真的爱你 ,他绝对不会一次次把你推向那冰冷的手术台,更不会让你一个人孤孤单单的去走向那冰冷的世界,,,他会郑重的说：“把我们的宝贝生下来吧！”......如果一个男人真的爱你 ,他会象爱他家人那样爱你的家人, 也会尊重你的亲人和朋友......如果一个男人真的爱你。。那么,那么,那么,,,请你珍惜好他 ,好好爱他,为他改掉所有的小姐脾气,好好的心疼他,理解他,鼓励他 ,支持他！希望并祝福所有勇敢追求爱的女人幸福......爱是相互的!

<<思念是一种病>>

2007-10-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

<<思念是一种病>>
歌手：张震岳专辑：ok

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离变成回忆
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那黱美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

这首歌是我偶然一次在astro广告中听到的，在我第一次听到这首歌的时候，我被它那轻松的旋律给吸引住了，http://www.dbs01.net/...7-8/2007830192039.wma 你们可以试听一下唷，是一首很轻轻快的歌曲，希望你们也会想我一样的喜欢。曲中的意思也让我想通了一些东西，我们应该学习如何去珍惜我们身边的一切，我们现在所拥有的一切并不是理所当然的，所以我们应该要好好的去珍惜，惜福，惜缘！

思念谁

2007-10-02T13:39:00.000+08:00

今天起来，听到邻居在播放一首巫启贤的旧歌，好久没有到这首歌了，这个时候听到，真的很’“应节”。

<<思念谁>>
你知不知道
思念一个人的滋味
就像喝一杯冰冷的水
然后用很长很长的时间
一颗一颗流成热泪
你知不知道
寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁
你知不知道
痛苦的滋味
痛苦是因为想忘记谁
你知不知道
忘记一个人的滋味
就像欣赏一种残酷的美
然后用很小很小的声音
告诉自己坚强面对
你知不知道
你知不知道
你知不知道寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因为思念谁

在听完这首歌后，我就很想很想把那时候的心情记录下来，很想他也知道我在思念着他。好矛盾啊，明明就决定不要再那么的想念他，为什么我就不能够做的到？我的爱情是否走进了低潮期？

学习如何放手

2007-10-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

今天我想了很多的东西，在想我是否太过份了？也许罢，所以，我决定了，决定了什么？就是放开我自己，只有放开自己我才能快乐，我们才能快乐的走下去。是的，只有这样我们才能快乐的走下去。我应该要学习如何不把他当作我生命的全部，我才会活得比较快乐一点。我在想，当初我在kl得日子是怎么过的，为什么当初我能熬过去呢？因为我有我的生活，每天需要去上课，见教授，做assignment，我的生活是多姿多彩的，所以我并没有多余的时间去想他太多，现在，我希望我也能让自己的生活不再那么的空闲，那么我就没有多余时间去挂念他，想念他，牵挂他！没有多余的时间那么我的中心就不再以他为主了，那么我我会比现在快乐的多了。
从中国回来后，我会开始找一份工作，然后等待政府召我去面试，然后就开始我那精采的教师生涯。等到一切都平稳的时候，就是我继续我那master degree 的时候了。到时候我想我都会很忙吧，我的生活就不再围绕着他打转吧，你说那会多好，至少我不会像现在那样的难过，痛心及伤心流泪。

wat a week...do you wan my hours??take it plss....

2007-09-29T23:22:00.001+08:00

its been a reli torturing week for me, having a continuous quarrel with my another half for a week dy, can u belif tat? a week? we never been like this b4, he was d one oways give up in quarrel n will listen to me watever it is, but now? really f**k off...reli feel so pissed for d whole week...i m jobless now, 24 hours seems to be too much for me, i have nothing to do at all, reli nothing to do, everyday keep repeat doing d same thing, eat, sleep, shit, tv...n i hate myself being a 等爱的女人...wat is tat mean? let me tell u wat is tat mean..everyday i have to wait him call me only, cant call him whenever i wan coz might will BOTHER he working, cant sms him so much as i will BOTHER him working as well, cant ask him to accom me at night coz he is WORKING as well, cant ask him to accom me more coz he is tire, PRESSURES, sleepy n etc etc etc...am i reli tat FREE until i must think those 不三不四?
我真的不知道。以前我们谈的都是远距离的恋爱，当我想他时候我并不能到他，现在大家都在同一个城市，我很想在我想念他的时候我能见到他，我错了吗？以前的不能够在一起，我很想趁我还没有开始工作的时候尽量陪他，一起做一些我们很想一起做的东西，我真的错了吗？我真的要求太过了吗？我的想法是错的吗？难道他都没有这样的想法？难道这一切都是我一厢情愿的？难道我就是那么的不自爱？很讨厌现在的自己...

my life...

a busy week~~

女生的痛，男生永远不懂!

a boring day

kk...im coming

2nd day of holiday=working day

苏打绿 <<小情歌>>

1st day of holidays~~

stomachache..

imbalance again

boring weekend..

good students...end of sem 2 2009

feeling better

another imbalance day

imbalance

miserable day

kaki khinzir...

你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？

can i be tough?

i will miss you forever, i love u!

last day in year 2008

笑死人的十二星座 .....

沙巴汉的心声

kk trip

女生看了会哭泣，男生看了会沉默的故事!!

笑一笑

我多么羡慕你

All Rights Reserved

black coffee? white coffee?

女性健康实用宝典~

心理測驗

神木與瞳

still another sleeping day

1st day of holi=sleeping day

finally recover

sick plus diarrhea...a reli hard day for me

yeah

说好的幸福呢

周杰伦--魔杰座

Tension

成熟的爱情

feel down in working

feel stress in working again

纯纯的恋爱

hari ini dalam sejarah

送给你一个故事，希望它能为你带来好运

仇人 與 恩人

mum not here...

sick

labour day

my love recently...

hope every tomolo will be another good day

没有守护神在身边的一天

a tiring working day

belif in miracle? i do...

对不起,我爱你

还爱着你心中曾经那朵红玫瑰吗？

sport day~~

超累一个星期

sorry!~~

1st week of teaching

1st post in 2008

back-dated blog

no fuel

interview letter

a boring day

KWSP

minor food poisoning

continuous stomachache

1st salary~~

<<蒲公英的约定>>

my JAY~~

all about me~~

懒惰的敏仪

a not bad website~~

piggy him

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？是的..

porridge steamboat

~Angels Brought Me Here~

badminton

仇人與恩人